Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
You've been missed!! hope you are all doing ok and that Caz is getting on well, tickets to Nelson Mandela eh? ark at her lol!! watched it on tv and looked fab, there's no stopping your babe is there, must get her great inspriration from her mum. sending you all love and hugs Teresa xxxx
Just been out gravelling over a patch of lawn that Mr Blue had chosen for his toilet.
They told me that dogs don't like walking on gravel and he wouldn't poo on it either......and before I could finish..................
84 quid....................shifted two ton of gravel 50 yards in a wheelbarrow........25 square yards of barrier fabric.....used a litre of weedkiller................four grass boxes of cuttings .........and it's still his S**T HOUSE !
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Foggy..............The Rooster of lurve............. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hye my hchickies I hope you are all weell and that you and your loved ones are all ok? I have been out visiting a friend Nigeal tonight and a bit drunk so excuse any ramblings and spelling mistakes! lol I hope you are all ok and i will be around for a while yet if any of you are about nab d want to say hi/ Daz is doinf well today and feels quite a bit better so ggod new on that fromt! If you are in bed i hope you are sleeping well and that you and your loved ones have a comfy peacefull night Much love and big hugs a very drunk MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie Karen soooooooooooooooo good to hear from you!!!!!!! lol Sorry i'm a bit worse for wear only not been out since daz been diagnosed so went a bit ioberboard me thinks!!! lol How are you sweet? hope yor ok and that alls well? I 'm a little p head tongiht auin't i????? lol Had fun though and has done me the worls of good to be out for a while and i don't mean that in a nasty way to daz either so hope you know what i mean? I love daz to bits but it has been nice to just be me for a while god this sounds so bad i really don't mean it how it is coming out i hope you understand me a bit? Or maybe i am just waaffleing???? I ain't got a cliue what i'm saying really i'm just mad and bad i guess!! lol Love you lots love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey my chickie chum juls!!!! How you doing? hope youre ok i'm good just bit drunk me thinks!!! lol Hope yout ok and that richard and the kids are well!! Ive been e a naughty gitrl me thinks the letters on the keyboeaded keep oving about so i can'rt see what i'm typing gonna throw it out the wonidow in a mo me thinks!!! kiklol What the f***!!! ?????????????????? Not got a cliures have you??? love and hugs MHMMM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
