Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Mate Aldi are doin crackin tents for sale this month, real cheap, bugger the bills an you and the kids get camping, be a great laugh, Shells sort the bills when u get back hey ? stuff em they cant shoot ya mate Give me your landlords details,and the utilitys , i will stall em mate You only live once hey?, no time like the present xxxxxxxxxx
lol. im gunna save bit of money and try and take them in summer hols hun. dont want ryan to miss any skool at mo hes doing quite well bless him xoxoxoxo
DBs boppin away in her bed to Nelson Mandellas concert,morphined up to the hilt, makein Amy Winehouse look like an amatuer ha ha she so funny, I love her so be back later hope you are about Buckets of lurrvvee kate xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie Lisa Good to hear from you too!!! Just logged on myself so good timing me thinks! lol Daz has kidney pain but has no temp at mo so just monitoring that at the mo hopefully it's not an infection and has to go back into hospital again. Lats keep our fingers crossed eh? I'm not too bad thanks just worried bout daz at the mo but i'm a tough ole bird really! lol How are you hun? all ok i hope love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey my chickie Kate!! i'm not too bad thanks daz has kidney pain but his temp only 37.6 at the mo so don't have to go to hospital till it goes to 38 c. So just waiting and see at the moment. I'm hoping it's not a kidney infection as i know he'll end up in hospital with that. Just keep our fingers crossed eh? Hows you and our gorgeous DB tonight all ok i hope? Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxx
