Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Hey feathered friends I am back, and I missed you all dreadfuly, the cottage was in the wilderness, 10 miles to the newsagents, mobile wouldnt work etc How you all doin, read back a little but my thicko head couldnt cope with all that info xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hey juls My special friend That post gave me my cheesy grin back, all ok with you sweet and your man ? yipee Friday and buddy juls has no work in the morning, hope your up for some fun and frolics xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Ha ha ha I missed you my friend, Cottage was gorgeous, 5 star luxury, Db managed 1-2 hours out of bed each day, so that was good, the views were amazing, the welcome pack was well soooo welcome, case of good wine Yay !! cheese, organic coffee etc etc, local eggs, bread, twineings tea Oks kates a bit of a snob ha ha xxxxxxxxxxxx
Hee hee hee No way Charlie and camilla have nooo taste !!! just jestin
DB and dad all cosy haveing a nap now, my brother came up and was so upset in the decline of mum, we took her out in a wheelchair to Bodnant gardens, it was a good couple of hours, lovely memories, My brother bought a replica of the queen mums brooch she was given for her 100th birthday, the snowdon lily, all in welsh gold, Db was so happy, she bought us a lovely rosebush each to plant,,,,, not daft our DB hey ????????/!!!!!!!!!!!!
Chikkie Butty Sue sending you loads of love, reckons its all hit you like a juggernaut hey? we are here for you babe Jacq, you too. posted on your thread, Shell hurrah some good news on the thread, so proud of you Teresa, MHM, you are tough birds and I love you soo, karen, adore ya Hells bells, come back here babe, we care shed loads Kimmy Tortoise, thanks for your texts, hope you doin good, will reply tom, had a contract phone for 15+ yrs, not too good with pay as you go, keep forgetting to put credit on ............. wombat VOAA, hey you sweet songbird Rooster of lurrvee hiya, Chikkie mad cat woman Donna hey you, lisa get sum bloody kip woman lol Bound to of left someone out, sorry buckets of love kate xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
