Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
will let you into a little secret my sis is havin a themed party for her 40th, seventies, so Im going as a bay city roller cant wait to see her face, she loved them when she was little
Mel.. just in case you are popping in and out and reading a few posts... just wanted you to know I still thinking of you and Daz..and the girls... Hang in there babes..
Or if any of the chicklets have heard from mel.. how's she doing..?
hey all chickies Just thought i would post just to say i am okish and slowly coping. I'm sorry you have all been so worried and i can't thank you enough for all your kind words and messages. I hope you are all well and have been thinking of you all and hope you and your loved ones are all well. I will be back posting soon just have a few things to sort out here at the moment. Daz Daley and Kirsty are all ok and daz is getting a little better as each day goes on so that's very good news. His blood test results were good having a WBC of 3.38 so thats very good after chemo lets hope it stays like that for the duration. I hope you are all sleeping well and thank you again for all your support. Please don't worry about me i'm fine and tougher than i look! lol Love you all You all take care love and hugs your MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hey MHM.. good to hear from you..but i didnt want to rush you back... you do what you have to do ..and just post if and when you can.. So glad Daz is having good days .. every little helps
anyway couldnt sleep too well... so I thought i would come and read a bit.lol ttys xxxx ((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))
great news thats daz is doing well after chemo, hope your ok too hunni. glad kirsty and daley are both doing ok. you just post when you can babe, you have more important things to attend to at home thinking about you all and love ya lots sending love and hugs chickie karen xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hi all chickies and rooster
hope your all doing ok, thinking about you all love and hugs karen xxxxxxxxxx
I am glad that Daz is doing well with the chemo. Glad that the girls are well too.
We are all tough cookies on here and we will always be there for you Mel as you have been here for us.
Sending love and hugs to you all.
Hi Chickies, I hope that you are all well. I had my 6th session of chemo this week and feeling ok. 2 more to go and then radiotherpy and hormone tablets.
