Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
mel, i was thinking about you yesterday hun, i wont ask about it as dont want to make you feel even worse. so pleased kate is ok and enjoying her time with her db, am thinking about her too bless them.
shell and juls, hope your both ok, shell once again fab news hun, and juls why you not marking?????????...............lol
Mellymoo I never said it would be an easy question but You did promise and you upheld that promise as well!
I would take my hat off , except I am not wearing one - lol
Melly we all do the same things here just differently! Just some of us - YOU do it with more care and attention, giving so very much of yourself to others!
listen missy you and me are not getting into my stuff tonight, dont you worry about me, we have plenty of time to talk, I refuse point blank to bring you down today, you know I love yer, so there, I'll tell justin on yer lol
hey chickies Juls Karen Shell and karen hollys mum Good night all of you i hope you all sleep well and have lovely days tomorrow I really am going as i am feeling quite upset and down at the mo i shouldn't have really come on here tonight as it's not fir on you all, but i just felt so alone i thought i would log on and try to cheer up but it's really hard for me at the moment. I'm sorry chickies you all have a nice chat to each other and Shell i'm sorry to put a downer on your daay. You all take care and be good Much love and big big hugs your MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
