Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
hello, chickie Karen, thanks for the message, and hope you are ok, and those sinuses aren't acting up.....Caz is chasing the Prof now as we still haven't heard and they must be getting fed up with me, lol!
All other chickies and MHM and Rooster, hope all is going as well as possible for you.....
hope your hear some news very soon, hope your having a good day in the sunshine bloody sinus's eh?? sun is out sinus's out.......lol hopefully speak later am back out to work again soon for a few hours hope your all ok
Hope all is well with you all and dear MHM I'm glad Daryll's chemo went well ;-)
Ole Rooster, I need to pick your brains lol?!! Tried to post a photo last night from Photo Bucket and seems that it's exposed all my photo's on this thread and since doing so I can't delete the post and can't send any posts, please HELPPP!! as not got a clue what to do, sending love Teresa xxxx
Just might have caught something on the TV about some massive power surge emanating from some web site............hahahahaha! it wasn't you, was it???????????????
