Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
dear Mellymoo, Great news I am so pleased things went well today,I hope the blood tests come back ok and you are soon on your way home.I tried to post you earlier but the b thing would not send it.Give my regards to daz for a job well done.Mel keep your chin up ,you are doing great.See ya ,love John.
MHM, so pleased that today's chemo session went well, and that he is resting, we all hope for good things to come for you both now........love and hugs.....
Rooster Mick, I sort of thought your post meant you'd have a bit of a head today! hope it improves soon...
Juls, technology, eh?! (where'd we be without it, lol?)
Hey MHM i am so glad today went well i ws thinking of you this morning so thanks for the update :) stefans birthday today so its not the best day in the world but we are getting there so i missed another chipp butty night did I oh well will try and catch the next one lol look after yourself as well ok glad Daz sleeping atleast he resting bless him xxxxxxxxxxx
Chickie Teresa excellent news on Michaela i am so pleased that you have finally had some good news it made my day so to speak keep it coming Michaela you can do it!!xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Chickie Kate Thanks for the up date on Db glad she improving and i hope you and your dad are getting some rest even if it is only a little got to look after yourselfs will be thinking of you tomorrow so take care all of you!!xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
chickie Moomy today is ok if thats the best why to put it hard when celebrations have to go on but you dont want to be a part of them but we will do it for Kev how are you and Caz? ok ihope xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Oh, am thinking of you, sweet.....it is s**t sometimes..... Caz is checking out lots of away breaks on the net... including the Oasis of Hope in Mexico....I too fancy a bit of a break, but think it might be much more like a few days away at the English seaside! xxx
Yes, Donna, we are researching all options, most of which will probably just be a tailor-made great long break for Caz somewhere she has always wanted to go! but she is right now chasing the team for a referral to the Prof in Germany.....
