Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Hi Anne Nice to hear from you and welome to my thread. Thank you for your kind words of support and thoughts for our chickie Kate I'm sure she knows we are all holding her hand and travelling this journey with her and i'm certain that will give her much comfort and strength I hope you are well this evening and please feel free to posy anytime. We all look after each other but also are all a bit nutty at times too! lol But hey it's the laughter that gets you through sometimes eh? Hope to hear from you very soon and once again on Kates behalf thank you so very much Much love and big hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
How you doing? Liked the smiley made me ROLF lol!!
We are ok though Michaela has been in a lot of pain this weekend, her back is sore but hope fully that's just down to the chemo tablets she's taking, get results of scans tomorrow...hope you are feeling well and have had a good weekend...love and hugs Teresa xxxxxxx
hey my chickie Helen I have txted Kate again after i spoke to her on the phone but haven't heard back yet I do know she was really upset and very very tired so i,m hoping thats a sign of no news is good news or that she is resting well and having a sleep. I'm sure she will contact us as soon as she is able bless her Just so hard sitting around waiting for news isn't it? I'm still hoping and praying all has settled down for our DB and that she is little more comfy Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie Teresa Good to hear from you sweet and hope our Michaela's pain settles soon bless her Give her a gentle hug from me and tell her i love her and thinking of her too Not sure if you already know but our DB is back in hospital as kate has had w bad night with her and DB was taken into hospital today We've all been thinking of her and sending our love. Hope your ok babe Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Just ended up typing HM (Her Majesty lol) did see kate's post earlier and posted a reply, please send her and family my love and thoughts if and when you next speak to her and will also be thinking of you and Daryll tomorrow, hope all ok and the weekend has been good for you, much love and hugs Teresa xxxxxxx
hey my chickie teresa MUS! lol See you still don't get away with it that easily! lol I will let you know how daz gats on tomorrow though i'm not expecting tht they will find anything sinister just have a gut feeling you know? I hope Michaela's test are good news tomorrow too. Will be thinking of you both and have everything crossed... well......except me eyes cos will need them tomorrow for the drive! lol What time is Michaela's appointment? Darryl's is 2pm. Be glad when it's over with if you know what i mean? Not meant in a nasty way either just the waiting for results is awful isn't it? Have you been watching the footie and who do you reckon will win? I think spain but daz and Daley think holland! Just have to see eh? lol Love and hugs your MHM also your CCC xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey my big bro rooster of lurve! Good to hear from you matey I'm ok still got pain with teeth but getting there Daz still tired but see onco tomorrow so hopefully get something sorted then. I'm sure it's just a viral thing though that's taking a long time to go. Trust you men to stick together re the footie! lol Flipping superglued i reckon!! lol Love the mello by the way really suits me! Hope your ok and that you have had a nice day? Much love and big hugs your kid sis mello! lol xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
