Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
so good to see you, well what can i say about my promotion........... kate and teresa will be horrified bless them lol, but nobody can ever take your place hun. i always think i'm quite weak especially after losing my mum and dad bless them, it has totally changed me as a person, i always liked to go out socialising and have agreat laugh, but dont go anywhere now, i'm a bit of a hermit, strange how it changes you isnt it?
hope your decorating goes well, but dont overdo things sweet, you are always busy doing things, you must rest too.
were not doing anything tomorrow, just staying at home and scoffing easter eggs lol, wont be able to fit through the door soon lol
you have a lovely day with kids and darryl tomorrow speak soon, loads a love, hugs and chocky eggs love chicky karen xxx
It's official of that i can assure you, and i'm sure Kate and Teresa would be very happy with that!
You have been a tower of strenghth to many people that you deserve the promotion so please accecpt it with my hearfelt wishes!!
You say that since your mum and dad passed that you have become a hermit and i can understand that. It's weird, and i know it's not the same thing but my son Daley stays home all the time since he got made redundant from his job 18 months ago. He has lost all confidence and never goes out of the house with his mates anymore, just stays in his bedroom on his own. Iv'e tried t talk to him and assure him but he won't listen to me, he just says bad things can happen outside and that he feels safer being indoors. Iv'e tried to get him to see our gp but he won't go and the gp won't come out to see him as Daley won't ask him to. So i'm a bit stuck as to what to do. I believe he know has aggrophobia but he won't see any drs or psychologists, as he says he only needs his mum and i'm the only person who can help him! I know this is not really true as he has a lot of psychological probs that i'm too close to help with, so all i can do is be ther for him when he needs me and hope that his hell ends soon
You are stronger than you think you are and have coped extremely well since the loss of your parents, even though deep down i know you don't feel that at all, but you really don't realise what a difference you have made to peoples lives. I'm sure your parents would want you to be happy and get on with your life as best you can. You have three wonderful boys who also need you and always will even when they eventually grow up and leave home they will still need their mum so don't ever think you will no longer be needed or wanted cos you always will be.
We have no easter eggs in the house and none have been brought as the kids said they are too big for them now, but i'm not too big for one but know i haven't got one so boo hoo for me!!! lol You take care babe my little surrogate mother hen love hugs and kisses your mother hen xxxx
there you go mama hen mel, from me to you, dont eat it all at once lol
i'm so sorry poor daley is going through a rough time, my brother went through the same sort of thing years ago when he was made redundant and was finding it hard to get another job, he said it was awful. i understand daley feeling safe at home totally, as i think thats how i feel too, it must be such a worry for you as well, its a pity he cant go to gp for some help, but you cant make him can you? bless him i hope he feels better soon. hubby and the boys are all excited for there eggs, men are worse than the kids arent they? wills wanting to eat one now greedy pig lol thanks for your lovely supportive message it means such a lot to hear x
anyway honey, speak soon lots of love and hugs chicky karen xxx
Well what can i say!!! what a lovely easter egg thats very kind of you and i shall deffinately eat it all to myself! lol
Tell Will he has to wait for his eggs till he's been asleep or you'll take them all away!! He sounds so much like Darryl! At xmas Darryl is always prodding the presents to try to work out what they are, or asking endless questions to try to find out what he's got! lol. He's worse than the kids like that too.
Hope you sleep well and have a lovely day tomorrow with your family. love and hugs mother hen mel xxx
hey mama hen mel dont you share that egg, keep it to yourself lol will sounds just like darryl, big kids bless them!!
anyway mate, hope you have a good day with the family speak very soon, lots of love, hugs and easter eggs chocky chicky karen xxxxx
dear kate and teresa hope your both sleeping well, and hope our duracell bunny and our michaela are having a lovely sleep and both have a settled night, speak very soon, lots of love and hugs chicky karen xxxx
Hey Ladies Any of you about? Mother hen, Surrogate Mother Hens Karen, Teresa yooo hooo where are yooou? I just logged on to find none of you have posted for a couple of days, - why??? Teresa chick, you and Michaela have been on my mind a lot today, any news? im worried, hope no news is good news hey?, You too Mellymoo did you get hold of onco today? Is Darryl ok? any news on radio? Surrogate mother Karen I truly hope picking me up aint dragged you down? bug gone? pls answer i is worried or are you all sleeping? Well I got news on duracell bunny, dont all get too excited, dont want to big it up too much but it is better news, but i aint gonna share or harp on cos now you all have me worried, Please reply I worry about you all, Mellymoo I lurrvved your statement of united we stand, united we fall, even if it did make me think of Karens and Teresas footie teams, ooooher goes against the grain a little, but still love you even if you are MAN U, I think ! lol
there you go mama hen mel, from me to you, dont eat it all at once lol
