Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Glad the queen duracell bunny is all settled for the night now. Can just see her little head poking out of a big duvet with a crown on! Bet she looks very regal!!
I will promise to try not to apologise so much, but when you type things you never know how other people are going to take it as do you? But i will try i promise.
I too am bit worried about Teresa and Michaela but think Teresa prob had an early nite as she has been up alot lately and at the hospital at 7.30am every day so hopefully she is tucked up all snug in bed the same as chicky Karen.
I hope you and the queen duracell bunny have a nice easter too, although we don't tend to celebrate it anymore as the kids reckon their too old for easter eggs now!!! shame really cos i wouldn't mind one!!! hahaha
anyway chicken you sleep well and hope you have a peacefull night, i will be around for a while yet as Darryl and Daley playing halo 3 on the xbox 360 so may watch them get blasted!!! hahaha nite babe sleep well love and hugs mother hen with hunky firemen and hugh hoses minus the pinnies xxxxxx
hi mama hen mel and fellow chickys teresa and kate
hope you are all ok today, sorry not been about but this stupid bug has taken hold today, i hate saying on here as its so insignificant, will catch up on posts soon.
had to come on and say hi, and wanted to see if teresa had been on with any news on michaela bless her, have been thinking about you today hun and hope things are all ok.
mel, hope you and darryl have had a good day and also kate and hope your mum is ok today. sorry about the starched straight jacket but we need to keep you in check ha ha lol thinking of you all speak soon, lots of love, hugs and easter eggs xxxxx
Hi Karen my little chicken, Good to hear from you tonight. Hope you get over your bug soon. There are some nasty ones about at the mo arn't there?
Teresa not been on tonight can only hope all is ok and that she is tucked up safely in bed as know she has had some late nights and early mornings recently.
Kate told me about your ironing skills so i'm sending all of ours over to you ok? You can miss out the starch though! lol
Darryl has had another good day and doing well. Can't really believe he has a terminal illness sometimes!
hope you feel better soon love and hugs oh and i'm keeping the firemen with big hoses but gone off the pinnies now hahaha love mother hen mel xxx
mines a coffee hun ta!!! hope michaela ok today bless her x
mel i will gladly do your ironing as long as a truck load dont turn up lol so glad darryl is still doing well bless him. am pleased your keeping the firemen and huge hoses lol with them you dont need the pinnies eh?
lots of love, hugs, firemen with huge hoses, and no starch!! karen xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I have a confession to make i'm afraid!! a while ago Darryl was loading the car up with rubbish from the garden to take to the dump while i was cleaning the kitchen floor. Well silly me put the ironing board out the back while i cleaned and Darryl took it to the dump as thought i didn't want it anymore, so i have had no ironing board for a while now have to hang everything when washed and dried, so i'm afraid it's more like two truck fulls then one!!! But thank you so much for volunteering and i will send them on there way tom! lolKeep you busy for a couple of days!! hahaha
I hate coffee only have decaff tea so hope Teresa has some for me? and coffee for you too?
keeping the firemen for myself and sod the pinnies i wanna see them uniforms hahahha love and hugs mother hen mel xxxx
lol hee hee, how funny, must be your age hun lol did u say tomorrow its arriving........ sorry out all day, dont know where i'm going, i just know i will be out all day lol ha ha
i agree with you, sod the pinnies.. firemen and uniforms will do nicely
don't worry bout not being in i'll ask them to deliver it to your neighbours, i'm sure they won't mind two truck fulls of clothes in their garden!! not a prob hun honest actually as it's easter i'll give you till tuesday to get it done so no hurry for you!! hahaha
firmen with big hoses uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhh thats my Homer impression!!! haha crap i know but least i try! lol love hugs and the hunky firemen love mother hen mel xxxx
