Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Hey babes looneys back Got a big mug of tea and if im honest a couple of choccy biccys, you ok babe? feelin bit better? hope our looney antics took your mind off things
Dear Kate I used to love Dionne Warwick cant remember the name of the one song I really liked but it a tear jerker! Im still listening to the box channel 335, thankyou for tonight and to karen too made me feel heaps better ad had a laugh (feel bad heaping things on all of you), trying to get some shut eye but not happening yet!! hope you ok and duracell bunny is ok - love to your mum (and dad too), dont forget your email address so I can send pics of Samuel,lots of love and hugs T xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
The only other I know is " Why do you have to be a heartbreaker" was that it? hope you truly are tired cos I can stay up all night if needed, honestly, you can always catch up on sleep, its only sleep after all, stop being silly bout heaping things on us, couldnt I do the same to you? bet i can, now im gonna go all dionne again ha ha
Sorry we missed you last night, or should i say this morning?, Thankyou for replying to my alone thread, Sweetheart you are very young to be going through such a tough time (understatement hey) you sound like you need some support please join us on this thread Mel cares for her hubby and is so lovely we call her motherhen for the way she worries about us and in return she calls us me (Teresa, Karen) her little chickens, we support each other through the good times and the bad, and manage to laugh a lot and we understand exactly how you are feeling.Hope to chat soon.
I have left a similar message on your thread incase you dont see this Take care Sending you and you mum love, hugs and strength Kate xxxxx
