Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
hey chickie hells bells Now we getting there! lol The ace of spades the ace of spades!!! Wahooh! i is rocking for sure! How bout born to raise hell by Motorhead then! Gotta have abit of Motorhead! I'm going to see them again on 23rd Nov with daz if he's well enough it's their 30th anniversary! wahoo yeah yeah!!!!! lol Lovw and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey foggy me too mate we gonna have awful edaches an achey necks in the morn but what the hell eh? can't beat a bit of good headbanging to ease the stress eh? lol love and hugs mhm xxxxxxxxxx
Hi hells bells!! Im like you hun, read one, post one...miss about 5 pages. Ace of Spades!! listened to all the time when I was about 20 (oh to be again lol!) xx
Dear MHM (CCC)
Not sending you sloppy seconds babe just that I sent ole Foggy the 'tart' got plenty left for you, did ya get any of hells bells quiche?? Mauritus, however you spell it sounds good to me :-) mum and dad used to walk us for miles knowing we'd be asleep before the sun set lol!! sending you over some apple tart love and hugs, your MUS XXXXXX
