Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
juls, glad richard doing well, hope he doesnt over do it, i hope u and nathan and his sister, sorry i dont know her name, are ok my love hells xxxxxxxx
Leave me with a little bit of sun or just let me have a few clouds, I'll be happy with that!! I've got no cake but an apple tart though I've just sent ole Foggy half of it (guess what half lol!!) though I'm up for a bit of helly's quiche, love MUS xxxxx
What quiche you got hun?? I 2nd MHM in hells' bells!! xx
hey chickie MUS! i will send you some more sun tomorrow but no moaning bout it ok's? lol I wannna bit of tart you send me the big foggy don't want! Why do i always get sloppy seconds i wanna ask? lol loev and hugs CCC MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hye chickie hells bells love the new name really suits ya! lol keep on smiling babe love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxx
its mediterranian, juls , a cannit spell it, courgette, pepper, red and green, onion and EGG! well doesnt that go with out saying???? fancy writing egg
hey chickie M.U.S! Iv'e always wanted to go to mauritious! (Think spelt wrong but sure you can work it out) lol Is that a island? Me no good at geography by the well if you couldn't tell! lol On holiday we when the kids were young we went for a walk and i navagated! Bad move! Took us 16 miles away from our holiday park! lol Mind the kids slept well that night! lol love and hugs C.C.C MHM XXXXXXXXXXXXXX
