Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
dear chickie MUS teresa, thanks for the tart babe delicious if i may say but where's me custard? I'm a greedy cow really! lol I'm at the airport waiting for me plane to Mauritious where you gone? Love and hugs your C.C.C MHM xxxxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie hells bells you sent that quiche yet me ad me pudding already! lol I ad a lovely tart chickie teresa sent over but she forgot me custard! lol Flipping women can't trust em to do nuffink! lol think i'll av some of that lamb shank ole foggy ad the other day whats a bit o food poisoning between mates eh? lol love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hi teresa just getting a hiya in before you hit the hay ( i can touch type but its only one letter at a time ) i like a song, will i sing it ????? am sure you'll all like it, its by the smiths, does keiths head in !!!!!!!!!!! HELLS BELLS! sounds like a blokeys complaint now, giz a hand, need new name and fogs daint be rude! 80 pages later........... "whos hells bloody bells anyway??? " xxxxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie MUS teresa flippin women!! Getting me custard late i already ate me pie now! lol I'll av to av it on me quiche now but snot the same! lol love and hugs MHM ccc xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey foggy Flippin women eh? Gte me tart before me custard whatever next eh? av you got any of that lamb shank left? Send it over if ya have i don't mind bit of food poisoning we be fighting for the loo then! lol Wonder if it'll go well with the custard that teresa sent over LATE!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie hells bells Can i av me custard wiv me fritata then? lol love and hugs MHM xxxxx P.S what appened to me quiche can't be that bad can it? lol
Sing us a song then helly (do you know any westlife??) only joking CCC MHM lol!! trying going thro alphabet for a rhyming one or how about ...nah I can't think hun was going on the lines of newcky brown ale but something nice afterwards... I'll get me coat and go and make MHM another apple tart XXXX
