Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
hey hells bells!!! You not allowed to change your name to Mrs depression 2008 cos i said so! lol You can't be depressed on here hun you gotta bring our quiche round so cheer up chicken!!! Love ya loads and if you wanna change your name to hells bells thats ok i agree with that as i'm sure the other chickies do What do you all say eh? Love and hugs bossy MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
chickie hells bells if you wanna change your name you click on your profile on the leaft of the screen then click on preferences and change it there! Ain't i clever! lol I'm not really chickie teresa told me how to do it earlire! Love and hugs MHmxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie hippy helly loves telly hells bells! What a mouthful!! OOOHHH EEERRR!!! lol That sounds good to me though you go for it lil sis! lol love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxx
Ya need to stay off them ole vindaloos!! chucking ya a spare few over, seen that Helly's got a quiche and I've made an apple tart so will send you half over...which half do you want lol!! xxxx
well am not as thick as you might think!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am now officially hells bells!!! does someone now need to smash a bottle of champagne over me.................please!!!!!!!!!! no only kidding am on the bloody wagon, so who ever has it, keep it, til a fall off ok HELLS BELLS better than helly!!! xxxxxxxx
