Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Hey helly Think ole foggy goes down the cafe when I'm about as think I scare him orf!! :-) xx
Hi Juls
How r things hun, hope work was ok (ish)? was thinking about islands the other day, have you ever been to the Isle of Wight, surrounded by water and lots of lovely hills/cliffs to climb though very windy :-) xx
Hi Hells Bells!! AKA helly! lol Think you are fab babe you keep smiling eh? We''ll def have to get daz and Keith on a sleep.a.thon! They will do that no worries be a piece of cake for em! lol Talking of cake i feel bit peckish now! Who's got cake!!!!!???????????????? Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hi Mother Hen Mel Glad you got the change of name sorted in the end, told you I knew how to do it lol!! no seriously I did ask chickie moomy but I worked it out before she replied so there CCC!! Are you still on that ceiling or just floating around...got the sun you sent today, thanks but was too bloody hot and couldn't go out in it as in with Michaela...typical british I moan when it's wet cold and windy and then moan when it's sunny and too hot ha ha!! Love and hugs Man U scum !! XXXXXXX
hey big bruv mick No cake for you then!! lol Hope ya poops clear up soon though poor pooping you! Love and hugs MHM with extra loo roll just for you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey my man utd scum I can't win wiv you my girl!!! Gonna take the sun away then if you's just moaning and wasteing it! lol Love ya loads still though Do you have any cake i can have me's ungry!!! Love and hugs Cheeky Chelsea Cow!! :) xxxxxxxx
av got MASSIVE quiche!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! a no, not the same, but me ma said SHARE YOU LITTLE ****! so thats what am doin, best before the 5th so best hurry up ! hells bells!!! how do i change it from helly to mrs. depression 2008!!!!! a walked it!!!! xxxxxxxxx
