Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Foggy, was going to ask why you'd posted a pic of Shakespeare with the question that you did?? realise why now, that one went reet over me hed (sorry helly just that I don't know a brum accent yet but I'll learn lol!!)
Did english lit at school so should have realised...Juls'll prob have me in detention now XXXX
hi all my chickies How you all diddling? Thanks for telling me how to change me name teresa! You're so clever! lol Well actually moomy helen is cos i know she told you!!! lol See can't keep a secret round here! Daz got on ok today his radio onco (Daz has 2 onco's one for radio mr taylor and one for chemo and all the rest of treatment dr shah) dr taylor said if the tiredness is due to radio that daz had on his head then should start to feel more awake next week. He said the croaky voice daz has is nothing to do with the radio though. But good news he doesn't need to see daz again unless dr shah wants him to have more radio in the future. Daz still got full body Ct scan next week (10th) and sees dr shah again the following week for results. But good news we got rid of one onco so to speak! that wasn't in a nasty way either! I'm good high on morphine so forgive any mistakes ok? lol The weather has been lovely and moomy helen and teresa did you get the sun i blew over to you today? Hope you caught it and that it cheered you up? lol Hi helly hows it going babe hope you and keith are ok and that you both had a good day? Love and hugs high cheeky chelsea cow! lol MHM xxxxxxxxxxx
hey my lil sis helly Glad you's ok hun. Daz bin sleeping loads too recently wonder if him and keith could have a sponsered kip.a.thon??? lol Raise loads of money for Mac they would! lol I'll pass some morphine down to ya and keep away fromthe winkles i heard they bite! love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxx
what can i say, upward and upward, not onward and upward, little at a time, life is good, life is great, so come on you buddys lets celebrate! wheres micky roosty??? juls am on the wagon this is me for a change!!!! shock horror!!!!
darryl and keith on a sleep-a-thon! teresa ant and dec are a couple o ****! teresa, moomy, i need to give you geordie lessons if you want to communicate wi this geordie...........person! he he, a daint come on much but a read back and a love you all loads, hells bells, now isnt that better than helly????? xxxxxxxxxxxxx twenty pages later hells bells creeps in un noticed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
