Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
hey chickie teresa Glad we got that sorted! What a pair we are eh? lol Daz and Daley call man utd supporters scum so thats where i pick it up from but no offence meant I know we miss the jesting bout the footie but hey we can do it to each other and people will think we're being nasty to each other but we know the real reason don't we! lol You rest your weary head now and i'm gonna make a cuppa as Daley just got back up and he said he's gagging for one! Cheeky little wotnot could have made me one! lol Oh well best i go now see whats on crappy tv this time of the day! lol You take care babe and catch up very soon Love and hugs the cheeky chelsea cow MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxx lol
Dear MHM All sorted :-) James also calls them that too lol!! You're not missing much on the tv, tell Daley to make my lovely surrogate mother hen a cuppa and I'll have one as well please to take up the wooden hill with me... hope you get some sleep and sweet dreams
Love ya loads, love and ((((hugs)))) your Man Utd scum!! xxxxxxxxxx
hi chickie helen Not sure if you're still about but just wanted to say hello! I haven't been to bed yet was up till 7am watching the soaps i had recorded so by then thought no point going to bed really! lol I'm a big soap addict sad i know but can't miss em! lol Big wedding on Emmerdale tonight ooohhhh can't wait! Hope you Caz and hubby are having a good day today? I'm going to plant more veggie plants soon as weather better today! The sun has got it's hat on hip hip hip hooray!!!!! The sun has got it's hat on and it's coming out to play!!!! lol Just a little ditty to make your day! Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie Helen Well think the sun is following me around! lol It must really like me is all i can say! i'll send some over to you later when iv'e finished in the garden ok? love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxx
Hey chickie Juls good to hear from you! We are gloating but it's in a nice way! lol You been busy at work today hun? Hows you Richard and family today? Hope alls well love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxx
hi chickie Helen wonder if i blow really really hard that will move the sun your way? lol Actually on second thoughts i may keep it for a while yet cos i'm a meany!! lol You can have some tomorrow hows that/ love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxx
