Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
hey foggy that was weird mate..... seriously weird.... you been on the funny fags!!!! lol Just jesting with you mate Maybe we should all go along the lane one eve and see what we see?? I'm up for that anyone else wanna come!!! Yeah lets go ghosthunting!!! lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Ha ha...have just had to pick meself up off the floor!! ;-) any spare macaroni and hot dogs going mmm!! not got me MAN U head on anymore just wanted to get the dig in when you started picking on me :-( Love and hugs XXXXXXX
Hey Foggy You been on the old juice again lol!! only joking That's very spooky...do you remember the A6 murders? a friend of mine, whenever they drive past that stretch of road her boyfriend gets the real jitters and once stopped the car because he thought someone was trying to cross the main road in the pitch black of night...there was no-one there xx
hey chickie Teresa just sending over the macaroni and hot dogs now....................slush...........er i missed!!!! Got to clean meself up now! lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hey foggy I don't mind having the willies put up me but can i have one at a time please cos i ain't that big!! lol I'm only 5ft 2inch..................Tall that is........ not...... well.... need i say more!!!! Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
