Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Teresa babe " he just a fat maradonna a fat marradonna" oh yeah an ronaldo ladyboys off to real madrid lol xxxxxxxxx Also hear bout Gary Nevilles swimming pool? just loved that one xxxxxxxxx
Hey chickie Kate cheers for sticking up for me babe loves ya loads for that Hey chickie Teresa not so clever now are ya without your backup eh!!!! lol Sorry babe but you asked for this!!! Pick on me you take my mate kate on tooo!!!!! lol All in jest though babe yeah? Just realised kate mate rhymed!!! I got a matie and her names katie!!!! lol Loving it!!! Wahoooooo!! I'm mad mel but i'm loving it loving it loving it!!!! lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hey chickies Kirsty just got home and she's not fallen over yet!!! wahoooooo!!! She said a strange man dropped her off...... went by the name of foggy!!!!!! lol love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxx
Just thought Id tell ya Im scoffing wagon wheels? not had one in years How comes I can get a whole one in my mouth now? have they shrunk or has my gob got larger mmmmm one for Jeremy Paxman and question time me thinks..... Down Rooster xxxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie Kate whats that bout garry nevilles swimming pool? I never heard bout that! lol Got a joke by the way Irish man walking down the rd and comes accross a box with wires sticking out of it He rings the police and says iv'e found a box with wires sticking out of it The operators says is it ticking No he replies i think it's beef!!!!! I'll get me coat as foggy would say!!!! lol love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie Kate i think wagon wheels are smaller too mind that's my excuse as well so whay hey!! lol
Hey foggy kirsty just come home but still standing she said a strange man dropped her off.......... went by the name foggy!!!! Wasn't you by any chance was it!!!! lol love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxx
so there !!! xxxxxxx
