Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
so hopefully Motorhead eh in November? be a good stress buster lol!! More a Westlife girlie meself and I've not got me buddy Karen to help me out here or back up ;-) ha ha, shall I get my coat as well Love and hugs xxxxxxxxxx
hey chickies Guess who i just spoke to?????????????//.............................................. our lovely chuickie Kimmy!!!!! Wahooohhhhh loves her so much She asked me to say that she loves ya all and that she has no probs with people either ringing her or posting messages as she understands some people prefer to post. She said she may post later if she feels up to it and i told her no worries just do what she thinks she is up to doing. Hope that all sets your minds at rest a bit and she has a friend with her at the mo and we had some laughs on the phone love you all love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hey chickie Teresa We all have our faults babe and you can't help your's eh??? lol OOOOHHHHHH biiiitttttcccchhhhyyyyyyy mel me thinks lol love ya really me ole mucker!!!! Even if you a westlife fan!!! love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Now chickie Teresa!!! I was gonna say p*** off but thought that sounded bit harsh!!!! lol But sod it P OFFF anyway with your man u scum!!!! lovl!!!!!! Thats laughing out very loud to you!!!!!!! loves ya still though sometimes!!! (THIS IS ALL IN JEST BY THE WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) well maybe the man u scum bit aint though!!! lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie Kate come elp me out chickie Teresa is picking on me!!!! Snot fair i never even said nuffin eifer!!!!! LOL love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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