Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Kate, My little chicken you may be delirious but your also very funny!! haha NOW GET TO BED!! or i'll come round and untangle you!! hahaha love and hugs mother hen mel xxx
Im going to bed happy now ive made you smile, actually i dont care if ive drove you nuts, I just apologise to all your friends on this thread for stepping on everyones toes and hogging this thread, its just that as a fellow carer I sure know Mel how lonely being a carer can be and when you are frettingand worried to the pit of your tummy the time is even longer, I know you will do the same for me one day, I hope my madness has whiled away some time and that I have worn you out, (and to my nosey adopted sister - you know who you are) so this is truly my last post to you tonight sleep well my lovely new found friends - I am truly happy if I have exhausted you all.......................Sweet Dreams Night Nightxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx K xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I was woken at 3.45 this morning by my Dad panicking and breathless, Mum had tried to get to the loo and had fainted on the bedroom floor and he couldnt get her up, I suprised myself how calm and collected i was, we managed to get mum back into bed (not easy as her legs had buckled and Dads a 75 yr old asthmatic), luckily mums not hurt and Dads inhaler has sorted him out, they are both now tucked up in bed and Im wide awake Kate xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Well done Kate, for staying calm. Where the inner strength comes from in circumstances like this we never know. You are in need of a good pot of tea and a big ((hug)). Glad to read there appears to be no lasting damage and your folk are settled. Love Charles xxx
Thankyou Charles thats very kind of you, im on my 2nd pot of tea ! Seeing Barbie in front of old and grey always makes me laugh, I heard yesterday Barbie Helen is awake, a little confused but awake -hurrah love Kate xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I think the Barbie tags in front of names make it difficult for new folk I see them replying to "barbie this or Barbie that" Talking of tea I have just been introduced to a new tea called Rooibos tea from South Africa. Its rather good.
