Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
No I'm not had intended to ask but hadn't done so yet. I haven't seen him since mid last week, but with the worry about that stupid scan, I thought I had just not been around enough. if you follow my meaning. When did you last see him post?
Thank you once again for your kind words, you really deserve tht medal so you wear it with pride my little chickie!!!! lol
I'm happy for you to give teresa my mobile and home number not sure if you have them but let me know and i will p/m them to you? It will just be nice to hear how she is personally, even though you have been doing a good job of letting us know, so in no way am i taking that away from you sweet so please don't think that it hasn't been appreciated! I hope i haven't offended you by saying that? it's so hard sometimes to tpye on here without people taking it the wrong way or being offended isn't it? Bit frustrating really! lol
I will let you know how Darryl gets on tomorrow and how it goes with me next friday i promise. I was surprised my cholesterol was so high as i'm not big only size 10/12 so just goes to show doesn't it!! I think that must be all that choccy Darryls had about it's been so tempting to eat too, so will have to lay off the choccy covered westlife for a while me thinks!! lol Got a diet sheet from dr too saying what i can an can't eat and it's not good reading i can tell you! lol Never mind i will try. Was a good girl tonight and had chicken breast with no skin and lots of veg so hopefully on the right track! If that don't work and the tablets i'm going back to the choccy!! lol
Hi Mother Hen Mellymoo, I know just how dreadful diet sheets look and they tend to scream about all the lovely things you like to eat , and encourage healthy but not too naughty foods, Ryvita is ok but a cream filled doughnut is eons better! However, we chickie would be lost without our mother hen so we will all help you there.
I was wondering what had happened to Mick too? I hope it wasn't the thought of all that underwear that scared him off!! lol You really are naughty chickies! I think i need to get the wet lettuce leaf out for a few little slaps!!! lol
Juls i know Barming, and Morrisons is just up the road from us!!! What a small world as you say! lol
