How do you cope when the cancer takes your loved one. My mum passed 3 &half weeks ago. I was devastated when she went. At her funeral I was the only one out of my family that didn't cry, I feel so guilty as I'm devastated that she has gone. The last few days my mental health has took a turn for the worse, I'm not coping at all without her. I keep telling myself I be fine but all I want to do is be with her. I don't really have any support with everything that's going on. I have no family apart from 2 brothers but we not that close that I can tell them how I'm feeling. I lost most of my friends due to my kids behaviour so I don't go out anywhere. Even worse now I don't want to leave the house, I don't want to be around people, I just want my mum back.
I tried to refer to bereavement therapies but they said they can't help I need to sort my mental health first which I been trying to get support as feeling so low it's difficult to stay here, but I just get rejected by everyone even crisis team. I'm at a loss what to do, I know it's still new but I can't do any of this without her. I feel so angry at my gp surgery as they left my mum in pain and giving her cream and antibiotics, they didn't believe my mum when she told them it was more serious than an infection, by the time a gp believed her it was too late the cancer had spread. Watching my mum go downhill so quick, sitting with her every day, was the hardest thing I ever had to do especially towards the end, she was on that much morphine she started talking to someone who wasn't there, she told us these things that she had done even when she didn't, she even told me and my brother off we still don't know why she was in her own little world but it was nice to hear her tell us off as she did it before she got poorly.
I just don't know what to do, I can't cope without her,
