I hope you don't mind me coming here to release.
(I'm a 30 y.o, single, 1/2 however my brother is nowhere to be seen/heard) my mum has metastatic breast cancer (bowel, peritoneal mets)- it's been just over 3 years she's on palliative chemotherapy, 12/15- she's so weak and struggling with even the simplest of tasks and it's so hard to watch so helplessly.
I cannot seem to shift such a deep sense of loneliness.
I feel like I'm navigating this all alone, i'm dragging myself through each day with no guidance. When things seem to feel that bit more bearable it's like a tonne of bricks hit. I feel selfish for feeling so afraid, for wishing for a 'normal' life.
I feel like people don't know what to say, so they say nothing at all or when they do say anything it just triggers me into a deep spiral of dispare. I feel like my mum's diagnosis is almost becoming my personality and I'm so conscious of this. I just can't seem to see any light/hope for the future, just a feeling that one day, I actually will be alone.
Hi dodgynel
Thank you for posting this as many will recognize exactly where you are. A feeling of being alone is really very normal and somehow posting on here can help.
If it helps too you are welcome to call the helpline.
<<hugs>>
Steve
