Only child mum dying of cancer and I’m only 35

This is the exact situation I am in. I could have written this. I’m an only child, 35 in a few months, distant relationship with my dad (alcoholic, emotionally immature, not very kind), I’m unmarried, I don’t have children, my mom is my best friend. I already feel so lonely and have wanted a family of my own so badly. She was diagnosed 2 years ago. She’s 68 and has lung cancer, I think it’s progressed to stage iv now. I feel like we only have one year left. I don’t know how I will go on without her. I am so scared. 

This is the exact situation I am in. I could have written this. I’m an only child, 35 in a few months, distant relationship with my dad (alcoholic, emotionally immature, not very kind), I’m unmarried, I don’t have children, my mom is my best friend. She’s 68 and has lung cancer. I think we only have one year left. I don’t know how I will go on without her. I am so scared. 

Hi, I've only just found this platform.

• I'm an only child aged 31. My mum has lymphoma and ha had 6 courses of chemo. She is struggling snd is just constantly asleep and tired, and it is just so hard watching her like this. Recent results are encouraging, however I am constantly plagged with what doctors have said about the type of lymphoma she has- that even if chemo and radiotherapy knocks the cancer on the head this time, it is mostly likely going to come back again. So it is just watching her slowly deteriorate knowing that this is the start of what every girl dreads- her mum dying. I've been strong for the last few months but now I feels like I've been whacked with in the face with a frying pan with it all. I focus so much on not showing to my parents that I'm struggling as I don't want them to worry.

Hi, I've only just found this platform.I'm an only child aged 31. My mum has lymphoma and ha had 6 courses of chemo. She is struggling snd is just constantly asleep and tired, and it is just so hard watching her like this. Recent results are encouraging, however I am constantly plagged with what doctors have said about the type of lymphoma she has- that even if chemo and radiotherapy knocks the cancer on the head this time, it is mostly likely going to come back again. So it is just watching her slowly deteriorate knowing that this is the start of what every girl dreads- her mum dying. I've been strong for the last few months but now I feels like I've been whacked with in the face with a frying pan with it all. I focus so much on not showing to my parents that I'm struggling as I don't want them to worry.