how do you cope day to day? I feel jealous when I see people getting on with their day going to work etc (even though I know they may well be going through this themselves). I feel like I am constantly worried about my mums scans and results and it is draining!!
my way of coping is playing it down and pretending things are better than they are but recently I feel it all building up in my head and feel like I’m about to explode.
cancer is not fair. I feel angry and I feel like I’m grieving for my mum even though she is still here just in case the worst case comes. I’m grieving for the some what care free life my family had before cancer hit us. I’m grieving for the genuine happiness and smile on my mums face which doesn’t happen much anymore.
I feel like giving up but I know I have to stay strong and keep goijg for my mums sake. Everything is so hard and life is very very cruel.
Hi Easy answer to how do we cope from day to day - because we have to! I didn't dream of ever having a cancer diagnosis, I went to bits for a while then realised feeling sorry for myself didn't make anything better! You are so right, cancer isn't fair, it's indiscriminate and destroys people's lives.
So I'm going for the hard sell here, take a deep breath and kick yourself up the butt! It's your Mum who's going through this so be positive for her. Yes, my life was carefree, mortgage paid up managing to save a little, a long marriage, not always happy, then cancer hit, destroyed my self confidence - hubby thinks I'm a drama queen but I'm going to survive because I won't let the little S**t beat me.
Ohhh, I don't often have a rant but I feel better for it - thank you!
You don't mention what type of cancer she has so if you do I can signpost you to a group that will offer support - YOU ARE NOT ALONE IN THIS SCARY JOURNEY
Big hugs your way, Barb xx
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