I am sat with my brother who is taking his last breaths,he is younger than me at 32 and he was determined to fight and even got so fit and well at one point but the cancer grew and within days he has deteriorated. I have never felt such overwhelming grief. Two of my three kids witnessed me breakdown yesterday and they have never seen me cry. But i cant be strong . My chest hearts, i think my heart is literally broken. If it wasnt for my kids and a loving supportive partner (who has known my brother for 21 years so he is obviously upset too) i don't think i can live with this suffering. At the moment im just watching him in pain but not concious.
Hi
So sorry to read this and wish I could somehow fix it for you. All too often we hear "I have to be strong" but in practice we all face something that is next to impossible every day and somehow we will get through. I hear you about breaking down in front of your children but perhaps that might actually help them with their own emotions.
<<hugs>>
Steve
