My mum was diagnosed with lung cancer with bone mets 3 years ago and she was lucky enough to be able to have had radiotherapy and immunotherapy which has kept her stable. At the time of her diagnosis I felt so scared about life without her but as the years have gone on, I suppose I’ve naively got used to thought of her being around for years to come again. On her recent scan however there has been some changes and we are once again faced with the very real reality that she won’t be here forever and that we have been really lucky to have had those three years with her but are essentially on borrowed time. I just don’t know how to prepare myself for the very real eventuality that her condition will worsen and she will leave us.
You almost feel like you have to be positive and feel like you shouldn't cry infront of them because you're the one who's well and not going through it. It's so difficult, feels like a cloud of grief 
hangs onto you until they go
Sorry I'm not more positive, I just wanted to say you're not alone x x
Absolutely, I know what you mean. How could we possibly be upset when we’re the ones who are well and get to have a future?
That’s ok- equally you are not alone either 
Please feel free to message anytime xx
