My mum has just been diagnosed with oesophageal cancer which has spread to her stomach and liver.
I just can’t accept it, I can’t believe it’s happening and I can’t take it in.
Two weeks ago everything was fine then she went to the doctors because she wasn’t feeling well and now our whole world is turned upside down.
The thought of her having cancer is bad enough, but thinking about her being in pain, going through the horrible effects of chemo etc and all that goes along with having cancer is just unbearable for me.
I know there are loads of people feeling like I am and my heart goes out to them.
I just don’t know what to do, I don’t really drink much but I’ve been drinking every night since I found out, I keep randomly bursting into tears, I’ve had to phone the doctor who was great to ask for a line to get time off work because I can’t act normal around people.
How do you cope with this when you’ve been so close to your mum your whole life?
Hello, sorry to hear about what you are going through. I’m not sure I can be much help because like you, I’m struggling to come to terms with my own situation. One thing that has helped in some small way is knowing the details. Forewarned is forearmed so to speak. It doesn’t take away the pain but it gives you some insight into what will happen, treatment options, pathways and what to expect. Find yourself some support, someone to talk to. Although drink may help in the short term, it’s better to talk about things in the long run. Feel free to message whenever.
Sorry to hear your going threw this... people cope in different ways.... I can relate not with my mam but with my dad who has... terminal prostate cancer and unfortunately isn't going to make it... like u my whole familys life has been turned upside down... I can't take all your hurt and pain away... but I can be here if u need to talk... ur emotional and mental health comes first too... but dont think your alone your not my private messages r always open if u need to talk... hope is stronger than fear... I do hope u find comfort in reading this.. sending u and ur family warm hugs I hope this helps xxxxx
Hi, thanks for you’re message and I’m sorry to hear you’re living with this.
I agree, at this stage all I know is she has it and where she has it.
We’ve now been told she has to get an endoscopy which isn’t until next Tuesday !
Once I know the result from that and what the plan going forward is it I’m hoping it makes it a bit easier.
Hi, thanks for your message.
I’m really sorry to hear that, I know how I feel at this early stage so I can’t imagine how you must feel with your situation.
I hope your dad isn’t in too much pain and you’re making the most of the time you have with him.
My mum isn’t in the mood to do anything but I’ve been talking loads of photos of her just around the house, with my daughter etc so I have them to look back on if the worst happens.
Likewise for you, you can message me anytime you want to, I’d does help a bit to talk. X
We are making memories and taking one day at a time... only on his terms thou as he is getting really tired quite quickly... yes making memories is important and photos... thankyou same applies to u xxx
Keeping everything crossed for the endoscopy result and a clear treatment pathway for her. Although it’s hard, keep positive. Once things become clearer I think that’ll help- the uncertainty is the worst part x
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