My husband 2.5 years ago had and was treated for tonsil cancer, the treatment went well and he was in remission until he noticed a tickling in his throat and an irritating cough. He's just been diagnosed with secondary cancer in his lungs and I just don't know what to do. He doesn't currently want to know the prognosis as his Consultant indicated palliative radiotherapy and chemotherapy could be options. We find out Thursday what the plan is.
I am completely beside myself and am not coping, I've not slept properly for weeks, I keep waking up in the early hours and having panic attacks and I am so scared.
We've been together 29 years, have no children and live a distance from our families who cannot visit. I just want to crawl into a hole, I feel like I'm in a nightmare I can't get out of and feel guilty that I'm feeling like this. I just don't know how I'm going to cope now or in the future.
I'm going to speak with my GP tomorrow as although I'm working from home I cannot concentrate on anything but any words to help please.
Hi
I think probably many of us on here have been where you are so perhaps it might help you to feel less alone if we say MeToo
Not sleeping rapidly becomes a problem and I recognize too the "working" but not "concentrating" - to me work felt safe and somewhere I was under some sense of normality - an escape from the uncontrolled life at home.
Reaching out to help - even complete strangers on a media channel like this can be helpful, just to know we are "normal" and not alone. That people just like us struggle but somehow with help manage to bring in together.
My wife never wanted a prognosis, her cancer is Leiomyosarcoma - I really struggled with this but as time has come on have come to realise that often that "how long" can be very unhelpful as it comes with no guarantees.
My wife's cancer was declared incurable right at the start but the second load of chemotherapy she had knocked it back some and most importantly of all seems to have stopped it growing - 8 years now we have been living with cancer and having got our heads around that life is really ok. My emotions are nearer the surface now - happy stories make me cry so easily but I just figure it is the love overflowing.
Post on here whenever, ring the helpline and take all the support you can get because together we will be strong.
<<hugs>>
Steve
