In august my dad got diagnosed with Terminal pancreatic cancer, I’m 19 i live at home with my mum dad and younger brother. We now have a hospital bed in our house and a commode. Our house is small so the bed as you can imagine takes up a lot of room. I don’t know what to do, i’m so lost, because I don’t want to accept that my dad is going to die, i’m too young for that, it doesn’t deserve to happen to anyone. I’m lucky because i’ve always lived with my dad and been close with my family, we’ve had our arguments, like every family does.
When i’ve gone online to find support it’s not helpful because it says stuff like “see a friend” “go out” and obviously due to covid we cannot do this. I have a good network of friends and do go on socially distanced walks with one of them. But it’s cold, it’s not enjoyable, and having to tell your friend to move away from you isn’t good you feel rude, even though they understand. None of my friends know what this feels like, and they don’t know what to say to me, which is completely understandable, because I don’t know what to say either. From this i think what i’m looking for is someone to talk to, someone who understands what it’s like, a friend, to message, tag in memes on facebook haha! Just someone who gets me and gets what it’s like.
