I haven't posted for ages as everything has been steady. Mum has stage 4 breast cancer (spread to lungs and recently pancreas). We are going to see the oncologist on Thursday and I just don't know how to handle it. I've been to every appointment and chemo with her and been by her side all the way. From speaking to the oncologist who said its growing quite fast I don't think the news is going to be positive. Only thing mum says is that she's dreading the appointment and then won't talk about it, the conversation ends there. I understand she doesn't want to talk and I really can't begin to understand how she's feeling. I really need to be there for her but I'm struggling so much. I'm not sleeping, eating, works suffering but I just can't stop thinking about Thursdays appointment. I don't want to fall to pieces at the appointment, what do I say or do?
