Having a bad day

I've noticed that when mum nods off her hands scrabble about. Like she's trying to pick something up.  She's started doing it as she's nodding off now too.  Her eyes are open but she's not really awake.  Jenny, maisiemae, have either of your mums had this?

Yes. Although her hands shake permanently her left foot twitches around as she's nodding off its the side that has cancer in pelvis so worries me but she has enough to worry about. 

Just had hospital appointment that was on time. ..! Keeping her on half dose thankfully. 

Hugs to all.

Jx

Thanks Jenny.  I guess it's probably the medication??

Glad you didn't have to wait around hospital too long.

Mum is v shaky but last few days i was grateful for any movement. Although yesterday she had a good day. Ive lost it with my sister, after 55 years of her being passive aggressive, dismissing me, vring unpresent, living abroad and then seeing mum for 3 hours each visit back which hurt mum but she accepted the crumbs of love. Ive now told her EXACTLY what i think of her actions and why i feel they need to change today before mum dies not feeling loved by her. Not sure where it came from, from the bottom of a barrell of sediment within me. Told her to stop running away, face it and get her hands dirty if thats what mum needs. Told her she hid behind fakery of excuses. Mum knows ive had a word and is so pleased as she is now helping me/mum re trying to get xtra care so mum can pass at home. I continue to fight for mum in a manner as if my life depends on it. The resolve im finding is extraordinary - not sure which pocket its been stored in. Ive always been the one who avoids confrontation, the good girl, the goves are off!

Well done, I expect you feel so much better having got that out, you and your mum deserve so much more love, respect and help.

Power to your elbow!

Maisiemae it came from necessity your Mum's condition turned you into an Amazonian Warrior.  Your sister needed this too. This is happening NOW so head in sand a bad place to be for all of you including her.

I had to be "not me" in order to get my aunt to come over for a tea with mum for an hour or so.  Fed up of the might come phrase.

Glad she's going to help more now.

Bloody tiring this struggle.

Love to all.

Sue thinking of you.

Jx

Yes! The words 'might' or 'i will try' or 'we will see' are no longer phrases which will be said in my presence and left!

Love to all and Sue especially tomorrow x i honestly keep thinking if you x

Good for you maisiemae.  It had to be said.  So glad she's finally helping.

Love and hugs to you all.

I'll be thinking of you tomorrow Sue and will be sending you lots of love. X

All my love Sue. 

Jx

Hope you're all coping today.

Mum had a poor afternoon. 

I'm at mine for the weekend. 

Hug.

Jx