Having a bad day

Hi Michelley n Elenium, u might both consider joining the Bereaved family and friends group so u can get more support  from folk in your situation?

Auntie's funeral tomorrow. Struggling today. 

MIL is eating and drinking more, thank goodness! She was going to try and go to funeral but has decided not to. Don't think she's ever going to get out of bed. 

Try and keep strong it’s very hard we’ll mil is eating again how old is she ? I don’t think she should go do you . I’m also having a tough time . It doesn’t get any better . I was such a happy person and I don’t know we’re that girl is anymore. Hope all is well tomorrow and you can take some peace from it all x

MIL is 78. She is still eating but not enough really. She's not even interested in watching her soaps anymore.. She always loved them. 

The funeral went well. I stayed with MIL and my daughter recorded it so we could watch it later. I did manage to get to the cemetery later, on my own, and fell apart. 

It's still early days for you Michelley. Its been 2 and half years since my mum died and I'm still not back to "normal". It does get easier but it takes time. I talk to mum and I miss her terribly still, but life moves on. The pain lessens but you'll still miss her.

Sending you a big hug. X

It never fucking ends!

A close friend has just been told there's something on one lung. They are talking cancer. Got to have another CT scan on pelvic area next week and PET scan in two weeks. 

Had another friend die suddenly of a heart attack last week. 

Auntie died recently of cancer, 3 weeks after being diagnosed. 

Another friend recently had her bowel removed, cancer has spread and is on chemo. 

Wish cancer would just fuck right off! 

Oh Elenium

How sad - I was only thinking about this little group earlier in the week & wondering how everyone was getting on.

I hoped that not hearing from anyone meant that things had settled enough to not feel the need for this support.

I agree with your sentiments absolutely!

Hubby still on fortnightly chemo coming up to 4 years since diagnosis - tried pretty much every option but still holding on if not necessarily going strong. Has lost hair, regrown and now mostly lost again. Had every side effect in the book but making the best of still being here.

Lost mother in Law to cancer in March which hit him quite hard and his brother & sister in law are going through a really messy divorce which has not helped.

Still I am looking forward to reducing my hours to 3 days a week after Christmas & retiring completely April/May next year so we can go off and have adventures in our campervan which he has lovingly converted from a Merc Sprinter.

As always love & virtual hugs

Zoe

x

Thanks Zoe, 

Good that he's still holding on. Shit about everything else that's happened. 

How lovely to have your adventures to look forward to. We'd like to do something like that too.

Hugs to you too. X

Hi elenium I’m so sorry you are going through a tough time at the minute . what with everything and your friends . I’m doing ok have up and down days at the minute on my face book memories it’s all mom and it upsets me that she was as large as life and then gone . Christmas is coming and I am hoping I’m going to be ok . Dad is not well at the minute nothing serious but he is 85 next week and a simple can change very quickly at that age u take care sending you a big hug x

Hi Michelley,

It somehow always seems worse when it's  coming up to Christmas.  Hopefully, those memories will start to make you smile. Perhaps you could do something in memory of her? I have one of those battery candles, a red one because that was her favourite colour, for mum that I have on at Christmas.  We also have a red candle lit on the dinner table for mum too. Try and make some new memories. Maybe do something different.  That's the only way I can get through it.

Hope your dad gets better soon.

Big hug to you too. X

May the new year bring you some calm in your life , 

it’s hard being the one with Cancer but I think it’s harder for family if any around & friends , but I’m lucky my BFF is a Sister in hospital so learnt to live for today from her still waiting second opinion , 

I bought a new pillow to align my spine it’s helping , had brain scan before Christmas I seem to have got some sort of colour problem Red looks pink , yes I’m laughing as Colour was important to me I’m not bothered really just want to get on with living I had good Christmas with daughter son in law then saw grandaughter great grandchild & new grandson dew in spring it’s helping so much , hoPe you all cope as best one can Live for the moment it’s only way I can do it