Having a bad day

Staying in the hospice with auntie tonight. I've got a splitting headache and can't sleep. I jump everytime she moves. 

They were hoping that she could have chemo but have said definitely not now. She told me tonight "I haven't got long, you know". She said she keeps reminding everyone so they get used to the idea. She's still laughing and cracking jokes. She's told us that no one is allowed to grizzle and everyone has to smile. She's a tough old bird and is loved so much.

My MIL (her sister) is poorly too. I think she's giving up. When auntie goes we're worried that'll finish her off.

My friend is doing OK. She still doesn't want visitors but we text every few days.

Sending positive thoughts to your friend and crossing fingers. 

XXX

Just as long as your friend is still texting, she knows you're there to support her when she needs it.

Reading this reminds me being in with my mum - couldn't sleep a wink and literally counting the seconds between each breath 

Need to get rest when/where you can - need to keep your strength up too  xx

Well the circle of life continues it frightens me . You are supporting her and being there for her I do hope she is not frightened that’s all I think about when my mom passed she was on her own and I always think was she frightened at the end . Your friend is texting that’s good and I’m sure she will want some company when she feels better . Take care my friend x

I'm so very tired. 

It's a bad day today. Can't stop thinking about mum and how much I miss her. It hurts. 

Your mum might not have been frightened at the end. My mum said she was frightened of leaving us but at the end she was calm and peaceful. Leaving all that pain behind has to be a good thing. Hopefully your mum was calm too.

I think auntie is worried about us. She is very religious and firmly believes she is going to a better place. She is very brave and strong. My mum believed she would be reunited with my dad. 

I don't know what I believe. 

Just too sad tonight. 

It’s so hard . I miss mum so much . I hope you are right and she was not frightened. Even my little dog is missing her mate she is just crying all the time I have brought her to bed with me . At lst we know what’s happening she is looking for her all over house . I remember this thread when it started and all the lives we have touched on such a long time ago . I do hope everyone is ok  I wish we could be with our moms just one last time just a hug a kiss anything it so hurts the pain in my heart is so real I lost my mom then my sons wife left him and now my dog as does this is the only place we can all come to we’re no one knows us and we can say how we feel on here . I don’t know what I believe either I really don’t I’m going to watch a video of her now that’s the closest I can get night god bless and hugs to everyone that needs one x 

Auntie passed away this morning. 

No words. 

I am so sorry 

my heart breaks for you she is at peace now x

Thank you. 

The funeral is next week. MIL is not up to it at all. She's not doing very well. She's been poorly for quite a while and this has just made it so much worse. She's barely eating and drinking. Don't know what we're going to do. 

Can you not encourage her to eat her favourite foods I do hope every thing goes ok at the funeral I have heard you talk about mil before hope she can feel better soon I’m thinking of you x