Having a bad day

Hello every one and ellinium im so sorry things are still not settling down for you . I’m hoping 2020 is your year . I have just had a operation and recovering I have had my gallbladder out . We Got through Christmas very well actually I said merry Christmas to mom When I was alone and kissed her picture. Then went down to face the day . Dad came and we was surprisingly ok on the surface of thing anyway . Then new year came and went and was so exited about 2020 getting rid of the rubbish year we had .its coming up to moms passing on the 7th feb . So I have decided to celebrate bit random I know but I’m having my hair done and we going out to celebrate her life . That’s how I’m going to mark that day . I can’t believe she as been gone nearly a year it’s still so surreal . So I hope every  one can get a respite from the dammed cancer sending every one lots of love

Missing mum tonight. 

My friend has been told today after many scans and exploratory surgery that there are no cancerous cells. My other friend has had her scan results and the tumours have shrunk by 50%.

Finally some good news.

Hope you're recovering OK after your op Michelley. Glad Christmas wasn't so bad. Mine was actually pretty good. I actually felt a bit Christmassy.

I think it's a good idea to go out and celebrate your mum's life. It's my mums anniversary on the 7th too. 3 years. Still miss her all the time.

Hugs to all. X

Glad you had a good Christmas purr woman.

Living for today is the only option. I learnt that from my mum. 

Hugs to you. X

Hi elenium i didn’t know your mum passed on the 7th feb 3 years ago ! This as been the most surreal year . Told dad I missed her so much and i didn’t get weepy so I’m holding my self well . That’s great news regarding your friends I’m so pleased for them things are going well . I’m meeting a friend today and I don’t know what I would do if she wasn’t well . I worry a lot these days about everything that I can’t control . We going to Prague in March and I’m scattering some more of mums ashes on the church on the hill . So for she is in New York and next Prague you take care and every one else that reads our posts x 

Hi Michelley, 

It gets easier although never goes away. Hope you enjoy Prague. 

I try not to worry about things I can't do anything about. Although not always easy. 

Hugs to you. X

Hi elenium that’s what my husband says why are u worrying about something that’s out of your control but I do.I now have lymphedema in one of my legs do t know why that’s started they don’t know why either ! Take care x

Oh Michelley, that's crap! Can they do anything about it? Are they doing anything?

X

Been talking - via text - to my friend who had bowel cancer tonight. She's talking about taking early retirement so is sorting out her pension to make it easier for her family later on and she said it's not worth her having savings. I thought she was doing OK but this sounds to me like she's not. I don't feel I can ask her outright. She's a year younger than me and her children are the same age as mine. It's so bloody unfair. 

Hello elenium some how I didn’t see this . And it is before the covid 19 ! So much as happened since this . Hope your friend is coping ok my friend who as cancer as been ill and they have sent her home as they can’t do anything for her . Not good news . And this covid 19 is just of the scale keep safe x 

Had a long talk with my friend. They've removed most of her bowel and she has a bag now. She's got three tumours behind her belly button. Chemo has shrunk them enough for her to have an operation to remove them. She's had a scan recently that shows what's left of her bowel is clear. Because of the chemo she has permanently lost all feeling in her hands and feet. Its pretty crap but she's so positive. This op should give her another 10 years. Advances are being made all the time so who knows what they'll discover to help her?

Another friend has been told there's a tumour growing between her spine and her rib. She's had so much pain for the last 6 months or so. She had an op in October for a biopsy but they cocked up. She's waiting for the results of biopsy she's had on Friday now. She's already decided it's the worst possible scenario. I've told her to wait for the results. I know it's hard but it might not be as bad as she expects. They may have a treatment plan that'll be shit while it's happening but have good results. I can't even go and give her a hug.

Fucking covid! Fucking cancer!