Having a bad day

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Sorry but I'm having a bad day and I just need to let it out.  I woke up feeling like I've had no sleep and really down.  Mum's been bad this week - a lot of pain and, I think, sliding into depression - so I'm in overdrive on worrying about her.  My sister is with her today so I don't need to go round to see mum although I probably will drop round later.  I thought I would throw myself into cleaning the house so make myself busy and then I'd start to feel better.  My fatal mistake was asking my 18 year old daughter to help.  She had a major strop.  I tried to keep calm as I realise that she is worrying about my mum too but it was hard.  I tried to talk to her but she just got worse and worse so I gave up.  Then my husband made sarcastic comments about it all - again he is worrying and his mum is also not well - so I am still trying to keep a lid on it.  But I feel even worse now.  I'm now sitting on the sofa in my pyjama's watching old episodes of Grey's Anatomy without the will to do anything else.  I just keep crying and feel so very very sad. 

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Michelley

    Michelley -  just wanted to say I know how you must be feeling. I was with mum till the end, looking back I don’t know how I got through it, but somehow did, Mum was my best friend and I miss and think about mum everyday. Been on this site helps me, as there are a lot of people who understand. I know it’s easier said than done, but try to keep strong. Thinking of you x

  • Thanks sunny 43 it’s so hard went up this morning and was surprised she was a wake she said hello love how you doing . It was the best thing I have heard all week . She said to me I’m confused are they leaving me here to die or are they taking me in hospital! I said no mom you are staying here she said I’m tired I told her to go to sleep then she went quiet for a couple hrs I just think when it happens I’ll not believe it’s happened she as gone through so much bless her how long as your mom been gone are u coping ok that’s the part I’m scared of . 

  • Hi Michelley,

    Sending you a big hug. 

    I was with my mum till the end, holding her hand. I couldn't quite believe that she'd gone. I still pick up the phone to text her and think to tell her about things that have happened. I kept mum's dressing gown. When I'm particularly sad I lie on the bed and hug it. 

    You will cope. It'll be hard at first. It does get easier. Not because you're forgetting her but because it just becomes part of everyday life. Some days are worse than others. Sometimes small things upset you. But you will cope. It sounds like you have a lovely family. You will all be there for each other.

    X

    Elenium

  • Well sorry to say mom as passed I feel numb and strange really I have family all around me she is with the angels Angel now x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Michelley

    Aw Michelley - so sorry for your loss.

    Please do not be sad she has gone - be glad she was here.

    It is just the hardest thing ever but good that you have family, however, you can feel so lonely even when you have people around you.

    Whatever you feel, it is normal - no one wrote a manual for grief.

    Your virtual friends on here know what it is like & will always be there for you.

    Thinking of you & sending a gentle virtual hug

    Z
    X

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Michelley

    Michelley - so sorry for your loss. I lost my beloved mum last September. Nothing can ever prepare you for when the time comes. Mum was my best friend and is such a big miss. As for coping, well, I try to take a day at a time and if I want to cry, I just cry. There are a lot of people on here, who will support you and understand exactly how your feeling. Thinking of you x

  • Oh Michelley,

    I'm so sorry. Sending you hugs.

    X

    Elenium

  • Oh Michelley,

    I'm so sorry. Sending you hugs.

    X

    Elenium

  • You think of this and when it happens it’s such s shock she was on her own as well all I think is was she scared ! I just hope she wasn’t and it happened in her sleep x

  • Oh Michelley, please try not to dwell on it. I know that's easier said than done. She's at peace now with no more pain. 

    X

    Elenium