Having a bad day

hello Elenium 

thats lovely to hear. A peaceful close, loving day.xx

i think it is a little like other firsts, the thinking about it coming is worse because you are recalling so many memories.

much love x

I think you're right Bobles, the anticipation is worse than the event.

Hugs to all.

X

So ... why do I do it?

listening to Roy orbison , i know you are all too young ... singing “you got it” makes me cry.

so... why do I keep playing it. Stupid huh ?

love.. and go on. Xxx

love To all

Nit too old Bobles. ..

Hug.

Jx

B - we could probably all sing it together and cry. Cry, its healthy, means we are alive and feeling. Feelings arent always lovely but we have to have the bad to have had the good xxx i think . X

Holding your hand Bobles. X

My dear friends 

Mum left us early this morning peaceful in her sleep at home.  Funeral is arranged for Monday 11am local time. The only consolation is that her suffering is no more and that is now in a better place with dad.  My flat is full of little touches mum has put together. Last time we were here was just after Xmas and she was glad she was here. How do I go on I have no idea. I  am dreading the funeral. 

Sweet alex. Im so sorry to hear your news but pleased she wasnt in hospital. Did you get to see her? You will feel lost but we will be here. have you got people around you? Breath and cry, it will take time. Its hard, very hard but somehow you do survive. Somehow x

Alex...I'm so sad to hear about your Mum.  It will be of comfort when you look back that she was at home. We do just continue. ..it is hard to believe I realise.  It often seems impossible.  

Everyone finds a different path for their grief. 

I was moved to read about the little touches she added to your flat.

Nothing is easy I know but that love you both have for each other will always be there..you carry it with you.

Jennyx

My dear Maisiemae 

Thank you so much for your kind words.  I was with mum all week and last night I said goodnight to her but she was completely out of it. The last 48hrs were horrendous.  The carer and I were at home checked on her around 3am and was still alive then by 6am she was gone. I just can't comprehend how such an energetic person full of life can be reduced to that in a few months. Such a horrible disease nobody deserves it. Something needs to be done people should not be left to suffer like that.