Having a bad day

So sorry for your loss Alex :( 

Lucy xx

Alex I entirely agree.  I so hope things will change. My Mum also should not have had to suffer especially in those last weeks.

Hug.

Jx

Alex. Just be however you feel. Dont fight it. Ive been wild, angry, crazy, insane, guilty, regretful, questioning. And more. Mum always said grief is a very personal journey. It can be lonely so dont pretend, tell people how you feel. I agree, its the cruelest way of stealing our loved ones. May you rest and get some sleep. x

Alex,

I’m so sorry for your loss.  I’m glad that it was peaceful at the end.  As you say she is no longer suffering and  is with your dad now.  I’m sure that they are both with you, watching over you.

We are here for you.

Sending you a hug.

X

Hello Alex,

I’m so so sorry to hear your news.

It’s the strangest of times I know because you are relieved that they are not suffering any longer but the reality and facing loss , love you feel and emotions you have are all jumbled up with this. 

Automatic pilot is a phrase often used and you may find this kicks in. Your mum will be with you still to help you through, think of her and go on, she would want this. Were all here for you.

Big hug, much love, thinking of you lots tomorrow xxxx

It suddenly got very dark here and then started to rain.  I thought “I better ring mum and see how she is”. She didn’t like being in on her own when it was like this.

Will it always be like this?

Hello Elenium, I don’t know if it will be always like this, but the thing is it’s the spontaneious 

 thougts are that your  mum is still with you and that’s what is important. Bob will always be with me and I still say we will do this ... an d find myself correcting myself, but that’s how I feel. Maybe I shouldn’t correct myself xxxxx but it’s still another slap in the face of reality.

on with another day xx

Thank you so much you are the ones that understand the most. At the moment my sister is on the brink of nervous breakdown so my cousin and are the ones keeping calm. Definitely I am on auto pilot but it is exhausting. I wanted to change my ticket and come home back to the U.K. early but my sister asked me to stay so I will be back home on the 20th. At least my flat is my little haven of peace and quiet somewhere I can gather my thoughts think about the good times with mum gather some strength.  

Hello everyone. How are you all? 

Libertys are you home?

I've not been on here for a while. The counselling and anti depressants seem to be helping. I start my new job on Thursday so no more idiot boss.

Hugs to all.

X

Thankful no snow here as Dad hospital as usual. 

Hope everyone doing OK. 

Keep warm and safe.

So glad no idiot boss now T!

Jx