Having a bad day

E - can't press like, its time, for an empathy button, you know where I am. xxx

LibertyS - Alex, I hope very much this finds you with you mum and that you are holding hands. Say it all. x

Thank you for your replies.  Still feel terrible.  Boss wasn't in yesterday as trees on the line.  So a small reprieve.  However, he'll be back in today and we have a meeting later.  It will be awful.  I feel sick and dizzy. I have spoken to the HR Manager about everything - just to talk not do anything about it - which helped.  I have actually got two job interviews next week.  I'm hoping so hard that I get one.  if not I think my next step will be to take time off.  I really don't want to do that but I can't see what other option I have.  I can't carry on like this,  It's affecting everything.  Someone at work asked me why I was happy yesterday.  I wouldn't say I was happy but my mood was certainly lighter because he wasn't there.  I guess this shows what my mood is normally like when he's there.  I've always been a happy go lucky, what you see is what you get person.  My mum always used to say that I always had a smile on my face and always willing to help anyone.  Not anymore.  I've only really made one friend there and she left because she didn't like it and, like me, felt she didn't really fit in.  The others are OK but I have nothing in common with them and they are mostly younger than me and all looking for their next promotion.  I can't really remember the last time I laughed at work.  They don't really talk much there, it's all heads down and get on with your work. Sometimes they talk and I try to join it but I don't really want to.

I think if mum had still be here it wouldn't have been so bad.  I could have talked to her and let off steam, etc.  She would have said the right thing and given me lots of hugs.

Just hate this.

I appreciate the virtual hugs - and the horrible thoughts being sent my boss's way.  It means a lot.

Just need to get through today then interviews next week.  Fingers crossed that by this time next week I'll have a new job and can tell him where to stick his!

X

Elenium 

I haven't been on much as I've been poorly with a sinus infection. The antibiotics seem to have worked though. 

What a horrible man your boss sounds!!! I am glad though that you've decided to go with the tablets. At least give them a try anyway. 

It seems like we all just seem to be getting somewhere with our new reality and something else bites us on the bum! 

I feel for you, and send a virtual HUG your way

Love Sue xx

Dearest Maisiemae,

Have the Council given any reason for their actions? It sounds absolutely despicable!! And as for his children, I'm right there with you. Alan's grasping granddaughters never gave him the time of day normally, but when they thought there might be a profit in it they were by his side!! I was glad for him as he thought the world of them but still.... I don't hear from anyone in his family apart from his brother. Suits me fine. I just despair of families sometimes. None of us are perfect but I like to think that I'm above such nonsense. 

Have you taken legal advice yet? I hope it can be resolved, you have had SUCH a shitty start to the year!!!

Big Virtual HUGS to you 

Love Sue xx

Hello sue. Taking advice yes... if they write back. Its rubbish. actually i feel exposed by the long post and may remove if i can work out how. I actively told one of his daughters that i wished her well but didnt want ongoing contact unless in an emergency. Sue - how are you? Thanks for your support as always x

Maisiemai you are not mad.

you are the total opposite. As with Elenium and everyone else on this page you have always loved, cared for and fought for your mum.

i dont understand how the council can demand this but you are so right to challenge. As with Elenium, you so don’t need this. It’s not fair is a very weak phrase to use but it so isn’t.

wish I could do something to help.

keep fighting. I know sometimes/often it is hard but it’s for your mum xxxxx

Sue, sorry to hear you've not been well.  Hope you're well on the road to recovery now.

MM, sending you a big hug.  As if you need one more bit of shit in your life.  I know the saying is "That which does not kill us, makes us stronger" but I'm not feeling it.  How much more of this crap can we take??!!

Bobles, you are helping. Just knowing that you are there rooting for me/us means a lot.

I'm feeling OK today.  Knowing I haven't got to see KH (knobhead) boss for three days help.  I've got Monday off as got the first interview in the morning.  Got the second on Thursday.  

The Sue Ryder people have just been to collect the last of mum's furniture that no one wanted.  Still a few more bits to go but nearly there.  I wonder how I will feel when it's done?  I have decided to keep mum's picture of Jesus.  I'm not at all religious but (think I said this on here earlier) when I clearing stuff the other day the closing song from mum's funeral came on and I said "sorry mum these (there was a crucifix too) are going to the charity shop".  My dog started to cry and walk round and round me until the song had finished, then settled down. I've taken it as sign to keep the picture.  I think my dad gave it to mum when they were engaged.  It'll sit in a cupboard but I couldn't bring myself to give it away.  

I hope you are all ok on this wet Saturday and I'm sending hugs to you all. 

X

My stomach keeps churning, I keep feeling dizzy and I'm so tired all the time.  Not having been on anti depressants before I'm guessing it's because of them.  Has anyone else had this?

Possibly on the sick/dizzy but check with Dr xxx