Having a bad day

I am feeling very down today.  Really need mum. I could do with her advice and comfort.  I think my youngest could do with her here now too.  It's getting closer to her first anniversary.  I feel like there's a huge dark cloud on the horizon that is getting nearer and nearer and bigger and bigger.

E I'm approachig the same. It''s cruel we can't' hear them. I swing from total nightmarish recalling awful times and my brain searching for my exact actions and unable to remember them and to hear her voice in those memories to conversations in my head now where my inner voice is her advising me.

I hope you may hear your Mums advice inside you.

I think maybe our grief is full of trauma our hearts and minds struggle to cope.

Wishing you better days and the dogs might help a bit.

Love to you and your youngest too. 

Jx

Thanks Jenny.

I'm dreading it.  Me and older sister going to the cemetery on the day and going for lunch after.  Unfortunately GS can't come and I've asked my brothers but neither of them have replied.  As usual!  Don't know why I bother...

Hope everyone is ok.

Hugs to you all.

X

Hi everyone,

I have a new job.  The official offer came in yesterday afternoon and I put my notice in last night.  I feel like a weight has been lifted off me.  I've spoken to my new boss about mum and everything and he is very supportive, unlike this one.  With this and counselling perhaps I'll finally be able to cope better.  I think that the anti depressants are helping too.  

I hope you are all ok.

Hugs to all.

X

Congratulations Elenium and well done. I will keep my fingers crossed that everything works out.  Your new boss sounds great.  

Great news Elenium hope this is the start of better things, very proud of you !! It is hard to move forward after the trauma but your strength is showing again , good luck with the new job 

LOVE this - congratulations, you deserve it xxxx

Elenium,

WooHoo!! I'm really chuffed for you! Lets hope you're starting to turn a corner. As you say, the antidepressants will be starting to kick in as well. Congratulations 

Love

Sue xx

E. Only just seen this. the only way is up young lady, i do believe that those words are also a song, i wld hurt yr ears if i sung it. So so pleased for you our dear friend xxx

Thank you everyone.

I had a very long conversation with my second line manger (his boss) and told her everything.  She said that she wished I'd come to her sooner and she could have sorted it out, but I don't think she could have.  Anyway the job is tainted for me now.  When I spoke to him he was quite patronising but didn't acknowledge any of the things I said.  I think if he'd have seen me a person it would have helped but he didn't.  He made no allowances for the things I was going through.  Oh well, not my problem anymore. 

27 days and counting.

Hugs to you all.

X