Having a bad day

Thanks Sue.  I don't think I would have done this before mum died.  I would have been too nervous.  My friend, who arranged it, lost her mum last year me we were discussing how differently we feel now. I don't really worry about anything anymore.  As long long as those closest to me are ok I don't really care about anyone else.  Well I do care but not in the same way.  Even at work I'm not so bothered about stuff.  I still do the job as best as I can but not with the same single mindedness that I used to.  When I started this job I thought that I would find it really interesting and get caught up in it.  I don't.  It's OK and the people are alright but I just can't get as enthusiastic about things as I used to.  Maybe it'll change as time goes on but maybe this is it now?

Hugs to all.

X

Well done you.

Amazing stuff! Happy birthday again.

Love to all

Xxx

Good for you Elenium what an achievement well done !! 

Hlello all

Small way forward for me, not flying solo by any means Elenium, but I did drive myself to Devon and back (!), was going to wimp out an get the train, bob always drove and knew every route going. First step on my own. Scarey and sad but did it.  Big bag of humbugs in the passenger seat!

Xxx love to all xx 

Bobles, you were flying solo, along the motorway! Well done you. Much love my dear friend x

I don't think that's small Bobles, it's huge! Well done to you honey. Bob would be proud. You should be too.

X

Bobles,

WOOHOO!! See? You CAN do stuff!! 

I like the humbugs on the seat. I always have Werther's lol

Jenny, how are things with you and your lovely Dad doing?

Maisiemae, have you been able to sort out the sale of your lovely Mum's house yet?

Me? Well I'm still drifting. But it's only 2 weeks to Majorca now. Still have slightly mixed feelings about it though. 

Big Hugs to all

Sue xxx

Hello Sue, drifting is better than sinking so i see this as progress - im sure yr holiday will give you a good paddle board to splash on as a change of scenery. I do hope you enjoy it. With Yantibee sailing, Elenium flying, Bobles driving - what a lot of movement! Im wavering from a mess to ridiculous work schedules. Mums house fell through, hope 3rd time lucky! Recently picked all her pears, millions of them. lots of 1sts recently, hard hard. Ive loads of voice msgs of mums voice, i couldnt cope without her voice. I do hope you are all finding your own way in this thick mud. Bobles, sorry to hear of yr MILs passing, she was a very lucky lady to have you, despite her huge efforts to push you away, peace at last for her. Love as always. My glue to you all will be Silent Night xxx

Hello all.

Sorry not been on much but do read your posts.

My sister away at the moment so rather tired with Dad care. He gets up in the night a lot. 

He's enduring life at the moment and awaiting discussions about a growing tumour and bowel problems.  I know he'd rather not go on really. 

Had a good day at garden centre yesterday.  

I'm mostly tired. Hoping for me time next weekend. 

I miss Mum every day.

Good to read your posts about new ventures and brave steps.

 Much love.

Jx

Hello Jennie,

Tired says everything for both you and your dad.

Mil had had enough too and as much as she was "difficult "  I won't go in to details but she made me cry more than once (nurses deserve a medal and more) it is tragic to see life dragged and ebbing away again. So not right.

Get your metime, recharge batteries and enjoy normality for a spell.

Love to you, you dad and sister xxx

Thinking of you all