Having a bad day

Hi everyone,

How are you all?  I've had a bit of a crappy week really. My youngest fell off her friend's bike and broke her finger and two teeth. Lots of cuts and bruises too. I was an hour and a half away. I'd gone to visit MIL with eldest. Then took my poorly dog to the vet to be told that I need to prepare myself. I know she's not going to get better but I suppose I've been deluding myself. Just can't take anymore.

It's reached the 6th month mark now and I still miss mum as much now as I did when she first went. Every day there is something I need her for. Most of all I miss her always knowing the right thing to do to help me through any situation. I'm feeling very low tonight and could really do with a hug from my mum.

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Elenium. I know you are having a v upsetting time with the the challenges out of your control. sorry i cant magic a mum hug, mum cupped my face with her hands. Im sending you a big hug from me and i know the others will too. Always supportive of you xxx

Hello Maisiemai 

Sorrybfor the tardiness in response. Wise and kind words from you as  always.

Of course your mum was angry, sad as we all are/were. We all wanted the one thing that was to be denied us and that's tough. This time last year we had our last mini holiday, he looked so well! 

I have just come back from 3 hospital visits today, MIL in pain but refusing meds, wanting to go but can't, confused, syringe driver possibly being fitted tomorrow. It is all coming back to me again, I thought I would be quite detached but I find I am not.

Elenium, big hug, keep going forward, I know it's hard but we are all here for each other even now. Hope your mil is on the mend xx

Love to all xx

Hi All, 

I've been battling a tummy bug the past few days, hence the silence. Today's the first day I've felt reasonably human. 

I've been reading your posts, and my heart is breaking for you all over again. 

All I can do is send my hugs and love out to you all.

Sue xx

I know how u feel I am doing all the work wiv my dad who has lung cancer in both lungs and my husband is making stupid comments I havent been round to see hos family cause everywhere dad goes I have to push him in the wheelchair and by the time the weekend is here I don't feel any better cause I am worn out. Also I have been crying cause I think dads cancer is going to make a return and everytime I go to see hos oncologist I am waiting for him to say there is nothing we can do its come back to the extent that we cant do anything more so I know what ur going through I am here for u to talk to just keep ur chin up

Picked up the phone to tell mum daughter's exam results. Now hiding in the toilets again. Does it ever get any easier? Just want to sob.

It is hard and some days are harder than others.  When we speak to our mums it is hard but we stay strong and then crumble.  But let the tears out harder to fight them.  I lost my mum in April this year and then 6 weeks later found a lump and now just had 3rd chemo, every time I think of mum like now the tears come, wish I could talk to her for real but I still talk and hear her replies.  Try and stay strong, it's hard I know.  Keep positive and we will all fight this and come out the other end a stronger person.  

Take care

Valerina x

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Elenium said:

Picked up the phone to tell mum daughter's exam results. Now hiding in the toilets again. Does it ever get any easier? Just want to sob.

Sorry just realised you too have lost your mum recently, shd have read earlier thread properly.  It is so incredibly hard we all just want our mums to be there forever, do not beat yourself up for crying, I need to take a leaf from your book, I just haven't given myself the time to grieve yet always pushing myself looking after to help others, now I'm having to put myself first and it's hard.  Really feel for you, hugs Valerina xx

Hello,

Glad you are on the mend

Love to all

Xx

Hello Elenium,

I don't know if easier is the right word but it does change as we have all have changed over the months. It was a natural reaction for you to pick up the phone and I know it's like a slap in the face when you remember. I expect you talk to your mum in your head all the time and out loud, I know I do to Bob.

So no doubt you did tell her your daughter's  exam results, I expect your daughter felt a little sad as well that she couldn't share her news with her Nan. Big hug to you both.

Deep breath, on with today 

Xxxx