Having a bad day

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Sorry but I'm having a bad day and I just need to let it out.  I woke up feeling like I've had no sleep and really down.  Mum's been bad this week - a lot of pain and, I think, sliding into depression - so I'm in overdrive on worrying about her.  My sister is with her today so I don't need to go round to see mum although I probably will drop round later.  I thought I would throw myself into cleaning the house so make myself busy and then I'd start to feel better.  My fatal mistake was asking my 18 year old daughter to help.  She had a major strop.  I tried to keep calm as I realise that she is worrying about my mum too but it was hard.  I tried to talk to her but she just got worse and worse so I gave up.  Then my husband made sarcastic comments about it all - again he is worrying and his mum is also not well - so I am still trying to keep a lid on it.  But I feel even worse now.  I'm now sitting on the sofa in my pyjama's watching old episodes of Grey's Anatomy without the will to do anything else.  I just keep crying and feel so very very sad. 

  • Hello all,

    How am I, Same as Yantibee I guess except thatMIL is in need of big big levels of care, still in hospital and being looked after though.

    Must be so so draining Jenny for your dad and you.

    Keep thinking I must do something on my own for me but I don't know what. Guess I'm not brave or strong enough 

    Love to all.  Xx

    Or at least not yet! 

    Take a deep breath ... then on with the day.

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Bobles2

    Do what you can now everyone.   Our time when our bodies work is brief.

    MM sorry you're poorly today.


    Dad exhausted with everything. 


    I'm v drained. Sister back tomorrow. ..


    Hug.


    Jx

  • Hi,

    How are you all?

    Am having good and bad days.  Round mum's this morning clearing a bit more stuff.  I opened a cupboard and found her notes from the carers.  Just swept over me again. 

    A friend, who's mum died about ten years ago, told me that it will always hurt but it does ease.  I know she's right but at the moment I don't feel that it's true.  Sometimes it's a physical pain.  Can't believe it's nearly 6 months.

    Hugs to all.

    X

    Elenium

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Elenium

    Hi Elenium,

    I remember my best friend told me the same thing. She says she still looks at something when she's out shopping and will think "Mum would love that for her birthday". 

    Huge Hugs

    Sue xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Bobles2

    Bobles,

    Just start with something small. Go to the cinema. Have lunch at a pretty cafe. Do a coach day trip. It's surprising how liberating it is. 

    Hugs

    Sue xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Bobles2

    Bobles. You put one foot in front of the other. Im sure at one point that was hard. My close close friend who is 79, lost his wife 3 years ago, has prostrate cancer, regulatky hust books a mystery coach trip. He gets on, enjoys the not having to think and goes with the flow. Twist of life, he has same oncologist as mum. I digress. If you are in london and wanted to meet for a show or coffee just say xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Sue, think i just repeated what you said x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Maisiemae

    That's because great minds think alike! Lol

    Xxx

  • Hello,

    Thank you all. You are all wonderful and supportive, loving as always.

    Had a meltdown with the nurses tonight after  visiting mil, they were lovely. Mil is really poorly I know but she told me she hated me and Bob would be ashamed of me in the way she was being looked after but I know she is being really well cared for and I really can't care for her at my home. But feel really really guilty.


    Night all, another day tomorrow xxxx



    Take a deep breath ... then on with the day.

  • Thank you Maisiemai xxxxxx:)

    Take a deep breath ... then on with the day.