Having a bad day

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Sorry but I'm having a bad day and I just need to let it out.  I woke up feeling like I've had no sleep and really down.  Mum's been bad this week - a lot of pain and, I think, sliding into depression - so I'm in overdrive on worrying about her.  My sister is with her today so I don't need to go round to see mum although I probably will drop round later.  I thought I would throw myself into cleaning the house so make myself busy and then I'd start to feel better.  My fatal mistake was asking my 18 year old daughter to help.  She had a major strop.  I tried to keep calm as I realise that she is worrying about my mum too but it was hard.  I tried to talk to her but she just got worse and worse so I gave up.  Then my husband made sarcastic comments about it all - again he is worrying and his mum is also not well - so I am still trying to keep a lid on it.  But I feel even worse now.  I'm now sitting on the sofa in my pyjama's watching old episodes of Grey's Anatomy without the will to do anything else.  I just keep crying and feel so very very sad. 

  • So glad for you and all your family there. It is another step forward Elenium out of the shade and sadness, I know it can and does return but it is good to have a sunbeam.

    On with the day.

    Love to all xxx

    Take a deep breath ... then on with the day.

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Elenium

    Thank-you, Elenium.

    I take comfort from your posts, and the journey you have been on. I so admire you all,lovely people.

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Elenium

    Thank-you, Elenium.

    I take comfort from your posts, and the journey you have been on. I so admire you all,lovely people.

    Take care, Anneteresa

  • Hi,

    How is everyone?

    I've had a not great couple of days but still getting on with it.  One of the things on my list is to fly a plane.  It's all booked for the end of August.  It was making me smile yesterday thinking what mum's reaction would be.  She wouldn't really want me to do it but would be encouraging me all the way.

    Hugs to all.

    X

    Elenium

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Elenium

    Hi Elenium, bit the same really, up and down . Days are ok with been out at work but home is lonely and quiet it's all so strange . Looking forward to my holiday in August but again mixed feelings as Jill won't be physically with me. 

    Flying a plane!!! Go for it girl!! Your mum would be proud and she will be flying right alongside you 

    Hope everyone is ok x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Hi all.

    Eleniums ideas for her 50th brilliant .


    Yantibee it's so strange isn't it the new "normal" not normal at all.


    Tough day today. Dad's symptoms making me feel sick. Taking him in for appointment with respiratory team then dialysis straight afterwards.


    Hug to all of you out there.


    Jx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Elenium

    Elenium said:

    Hi,
    How is everyone?
    I've had a not great couple of days but still getting on with it.  One of the things on my list is to fly a plane.  It's all booked for the end of August.  It was making me smile yesterday thinking what mum's reaction would be.  She wouldn't really want me to do it but would be encouraging me all the way.

    Hugs to all.
    X

    Hi Elenium,

    So glad you were able to make the best of your Birthday & had the strength to remember your Mum - respect ! it can't have been easy as I well remember when I lost my Dad to an unexpected heart attack at the age of 54 & I was 25.

    You will enjoy the plane flight experience. My Wife (Von) organised a helicopter 'at the controls' experience as a father's day present, one which I will remember for the rest of my life as I wanted to be a helicopter pilot in the forces. Unfortunately, is was not to be but the experience was even better than expected as the the next person had failed to turn up so I had extra time flying & the pilot let me totally take control of the helicopter hovering & low level flying over the aerodrome. He said I had a knack for it, but feel he was just being polite.

    Anyway, hope you really enjoy your 'flight' & please do let us know how it went for you & any pics would be great !

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Elenium

    Hi All,

    I've been quite busy this past week or so. I'm checking on my friend's kitty while she's away. Her son is feeding her, but when he takes the kids with him Skye just hides. While I was having a cuppa there last night she climbed in my lap and went to sleep! 

    I've actually been feeling more motivated since the end of my bereavement counselling. I'm even starting to think I might go to Brands Hatch in October to watch Bike racing! And even though my trip to Majorca will be bittersweet, especially on my birthday, I know I'm doing the right thing.

    Jenny, your poor Dad must be wondering if he's ever going to feel a bit better, even temporarily. I can't imagine how hard it is for you to see him so I'll.

    Maisiemae, is there any news on the sale of your dear Mum's home yet? 

    To all my lovely family on here, I wish us all peace

    Hugs

    Sue xx


  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Hello dear Sue. So happy to hear life is a little lighter for you. If you go to Brands Hatch its not actually that far from me. 40 mins drive. Let me know, we cld meet if u wanted. Not sold no. Been messed about. Im poorly with a bug today. Horrid. Kittens are cute though! love me x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Elenium

    E, you fly baby girl. X