Having a bad day

Jenny and Bobles, to have been through so much and still be going through this with dad and MIL is awful for you both.  All I can offer you both are virtual hugs.

I've been out all day with my husband at a music festival.  It was good and I had a nice time.  While I was getting ready to go I was thinking that I would give mum a ring and pop round to see her before I go as I wouldn't see her till this evening.  How does this keep happening?  It hits me so hard each time too.  

I miss her so much.

X

Morning Sue,

Thank you, it makes me feel better to know mil isn't the only one, it's just awful to experience isn't it.

Not a good day yesterday, called back to hospital twice to calm her down.

Glad to be going to work today.

Love to all xxx

Nor a good day today.  Had to go to mum's to clear stuff out of the loft.  I was there on my own for about two hours.  Was going along ok then it just all swept over me and I broke down.    Horrible, horrible.

Dear elenium. Its so upsetting, its hard and wretchedly sad. Im sorry you were alone too. I did most of it alone too. is there much more? Do you need to be on your own? I coukd come down next week to help or just be with you. X

MM that's so kind of you. I would have taken you up on that offer but GS and brother in law down at weekend so we'll do the rest between us. Have asked others to come but no response. Back to normal then... Crappy family!

How are you all? Feeling a bit like our family are drifting...

Hugs.

X

E i think there is a natural progression of dispersement but i know all still care for one another. It was an intensely powerful intimate group. That still happened but then one cant maintain that momentum. not helped by the loss of own family, like u my virtual one was important too. You watch. Everyone will support you still. You are the one who created 'us' xxx

I'm still here. Just entangled in emotionally draining stuff combined with legal administration and social services loop holes I have to jump through to get a one off payment from them of 249 quid (you get  it once a year as a carer).

 Dad doesn't want to talk about the future and getting help at home so I can try to find part time work.   He feels ill so it's understandable.  He just wants his wife back.   We all do.

E so wish your family would help.  It's so unfair. They're so weak.

My aunt hasn't come to see us since the funeral. .such low behaviour.  She only phoned once. Mum would be sad if she knew. 

Love.

Jx

The rejection by some family members of our already tiny family has shocked me. My bad bro is as effected as me, the rest, carry on as normal. sadly i feel so terribly alone, having been the one who always organised family events as Nobody else did, i now have nobody else to invite as my sister will only converse by text or email - her daughter refuses to talk to me yet she has been very close to me all her life. Im now excluded yet it was I who have done the lionshare of stress and juggling and continue to with mums affairs, house sale fallen through for 3rd time. Im feeling sorry for myself today. Its all thoroughly unfair and i want to talk to mum 

Unfair is the right word. When I use it though it feels too small for what has happened. 

Hug MM you're not really alone.

Jx

Oh MM. It's just so crap! 

Hugs from me too.

X