Having a bad day

It is truely vile and undeserved Yantibee. Mum did nothing but live life kindly, creatively and actively.  No drugs smoking and was cycling swimming walking till ill.  She was a wife, mum, friend, foster carer, charity helper and stubbornly supported those she loved...am sure Jill had infinite qualities missed by you and your sons she sounds amazing. There is no point to our losses.

I can only think we have hope...for better times...easing of pain at some point.

The old cliché too...they are in a better place than their undeservedly pain wracked shells they inhabited in the end.

Much love to all.. having a bad day for sure.

Jx

Wretched x

My niece messaged me and my sisters today asking if we had a brooch of mum's that she could pin to her wedding bouquet so that mum could be part of her day.  I tried so hard not cry but ended up hiding in the toilets.  Some things never change...  I've got one of mum's brooches that she wore to my other nieces wedding last year.  So I've said she can borrow that.  My other sister has a blue brooch of mum's so she's going to borrow both.  Mine because she wore it to the other wedding (nieces are sisters) and the other as it's blue.  So she's got her something, old, borrowed and blue.

I think that is such a lovely idea.  Mum would be so pleased to be part of her wedding. I just wish she could have been there in person.

X

Hi all.

Missing mum more and more.

Dad asked if he could please drink some cyanide yesterday as has had enough.

I'm in the difficult position of trying to persuade him there are still things to enjoy when in effect for him there isn't much. 

He feels ill most of the time, all his friends are dead his wife and love of his life died horribly and he has no energy to make new friends.  He's scared to be alone if my sister or I want to both be out at same time for more than an hour.

Took him for coffee and cake yesterday that he enjoyed but cried afterwards and asked for cyanide.

Fun times.

Hug to all.

Jx

Oh Jenny my heart breaks for you I wish I could offer some words to help I really do it must be so so hard I cannot comprehend 

All I can offer is another viral hug , take care x

He's apologised by text for feeling sorry for himself.

I've cooked spaghetti bolognese so hopefully he'll eat it.

Going to pick him up now.

Thanks for hugs.

Mum made the lovely things in life. I can't replace her.

Hope he improves a bit.

Jx 

Spag Bol helps a lot of things. I totally empathise with yr father, i also feel hugely for you, how hard can things be?  I pray he has snippets if good times and you get some chunks. Love mm x

That's such a lovely thought, so so special.xxx

Oh Yantibee I so know what you are feeling. as you say 6 months ago, it still feels like it has just  happened. On the surface in outward appearance all is okay. 

Jenny I'm so so sorry for your dad and all that you all are going through still. I know, what can you say, keep saying?

Sue, You have responded to the wimpy bar kid, your duty done also! Glad you feel lighter xx

First time I've caught up n things for a crazy week, inevitably called out Friday night to mil, A&e early hours of Friday morning, now admitted to hospital.  So sad to see her like that but again she was excruciatingly embarrassing and rude in her treatment of the medical staff, do they ever get used to it? They were so professional and patient,  she doesn't register that anyone else can possiblybe more of a priority or not have time to make her tea, despite me e xplaining. Ho hum, challenges challenges 

Love to all xxx

Bobles2,

Alan was just like your MIL. Even the surgeon had to have a word with him regarding his attitude towards the staff. More than once I had to say to him "If you insist on calling the staff Fat F****ng Cow loud enough for her to hear you  because you don't have your hearing aids in and don't realise you're almost shouting, what in God's name makes you think they will want to help you?!" 

I rather enjoyed being short with the wimpy bar kid! Love that name btw!  

Jenny, you're having to deal with so much still. My heart goes out to you. 

Sue xx