Having a bad day

Again, i wish there was another option to the like button. I dont like we are all struggling but i hear you loud and clear x

An empathy or wow that's crap button?

Counselling tomorrow! 

Put some of mum's plants in my garden today and put up her clock.  Still feeling sad but like having her things around me. 

The probate came through yesterday.  So that's that...

Morning,

It's good to have things around us, Elenium I have a peony from my mum's garden that flowers every year.

Ialso feel that it's hard once all the legal formalities are done because it's their lives are now erased, obviously not within us, but in the rest of the world. I know sensibly it has to be done but it just seems harsh.

Just came back from visiting my youngest in London, totally knackered but had a lovely time. 

Do you know, I actually felt guilty and sad at leaving Bob behind and leaving him on his own. Nuts I know.

Love to all xx

Hi all, 

Keep reading the posts and just wanted to wish you good luck with the counselling Jenny I hope it helps. I have had 5 sessions now with a final one(possibly) this Thursday, for me it has helped although I was sceptical that it could it has helped me to start to find me again even though the pain of loss is still huge . 5 months into this unwanted new life without my precious Jill I think I am beginning slowly to show some small signs of light at the end of a very long dark tunnel, hard to put into text I guess but my therapist has been very good, it's been hard, exhausting and challenging but on the whole  for me a positive experience, I hope for you and anyone else embarking on counselling it proves to be helpful x 

It is hard getting this all done.  The house sale is going through and I'm off to sort out everything else today.   I feel like mum is disappearing. 

Glad you had a good time Bobles.  You shouldn't feel guilty about leaving Bob behind, he would be glad that you enjoyed yourself.

Life goes on but it is hard, isn't it?

Yantibee, I wasn't sure about counselling either but found that it really did help.  It's good to talk about stuff to someone completely outside of the situation.  I'm glad that it's helping you and I hope that it helps the others that are attending.  I've told GS that I think she should go too.  She didn't get to mum in time the night she died and it's still really affecting her.  There was nothing she could have done to get there quicker but she is still feeling guilty.  She's torturing herself thinking that what if mum was lying there wondering why she wasn't there.  Mum knew she was coming and would never blame her but my sister just can't sem to get past it. 

How are your boys Yantibee? 

Hugs to all.

X

Having a really crappy day today.  I finally got round to cancelling mum's phone.  I was doing ok until they said that once this had gone through her number would be gone for good.  That was shit.  Then I went to the bank to sort out her bank account. I asked them if it could be put in my name as executor and they said that I would have to open a completely new account that would take 2 to 3 weeks.  They could freeze mum's account but then how would the utility bills be paid?  He suggested that I get paper bills and pay them but how can I pay them if the account's frozen???  I was pretty short with the bloke.  I know it's not his fault but the bank made an already difficult situation even harder.

Very sad tonight and keep crying.  Don't want this...

Oh i know its so hard. mum made sister and i lpoa, thats helped. sale of her house fell through today, again. Arghhhh xxx

Elenium that's really hard. Bank sounds very unhelpful. Mums post office account I closed and transferred to Dad but it had next to nothing in it. If you have probate can you have a probate account. 

It's a pain in the @rse on top of all else. I know when mum's cottage changes to dad's name I have to change insurance and utilities too. No doubt they'll all need death certificates.

There's all this admin and all we want is peace.  

Counselling today was summed up with. ..you feel trapped and frustrated and you need privacy to grieve...

Hope you can sleep tonight.

Jx