Having a bad day

Hope it does help.

Dad not very good today feels nauseous and coughing.

Sis had big sobbing weep today as found Mum's diary. I had read it earlier it is heartbreaking.  Just dates and appointments and birthdays. ..then in October it just stops.

I go to mine tomorrow evening for a couple of nights as sister away two weekends in a row for weddings.

Night all.

Jx

Hi all, I hope the sessions work for you Jenny , I have had a couple and it seems to be doing something positive for me , trying to find the list person who used to live in my skin ! . 

Hopefully we all will too.

Discovered a hoard of Mum things in a cupboard today...ribbons bears eyes dolls hats etc..

Hug to all.

Jx

Ooh, goodness, I have continued to read all your posts, lovely people.I so feel for you. The aftermath of losing your loved one is awful. Sorting their things, selling their property... just so difficult. But you are doing it! I went through all that with my Dad, he insisted I got rid of all Mums things before she died. Then he very quickly sold the bungalow they lived in,( below market value ), but that is what he needed to do. The only thing I would say, is let those memories come back, don't block them because hey are too painful. Even now I think of my Mum everyday, and often dream about her.

Take care, Anneteresa

Hi all,

How are you doing?  Jenny and Yantibee glad the counselling sessions have gone well.

I'm struggling a bit at the moment.  I'm ok when I'm at work but the rest of time not so good.  I've got a few days off and GS was coming down.  We had loads planned and were going to get some plants and things from mum's garden to put in mine but she can't come now.  She's not very well and she has real problems with anxiety.  Since mum died this has got much worse for her and she's trying so hard not to give in to it but  I worry for her so much.  I'm so disappointed that she's not coming and it's really hit me hard.  I know I'll be ok but I'm not sure about her.  She needs to go to the GP but keeps putting it off.  I just keep crying.  

Feeling overwhelmed, missing mum.  I bloody hate this!

Hugs to all.

X

Hi Anneteresa and Elenium.

E you poor sis hope she goes for help soon. Would've been lovely if she could've come.

It is all awful. My sister been overwhelmed with grief this week then stabilised again. In and out of it. 

We sorted more of Mum's craft stuff. Very hard to do..Anneteresa maybe your Dad was right to do it quickly.  Mums clothes was hard enough.  Her craft stuff and tools seems harder. My sister will use some in her workshop which is nice.

I've just received grant of probate.  Just another bit of paper referring to my Mum who was funny creative and loved coffee and Italy as the 'deceased'.

Considering writing about mus last days for dignity in dying. ...but not sure I can do it..need space to do so..

Hugs to all.

I hate everything right now and want a dark space to hide in.

Jx

Are we still on for 20th May at Southwark Cathedral?  

Do I need to let Trinity hospice know Maisiemae?

Jx

Jenny Sue Elenium? Any others? We have 6 places reserved for us for the Cathedral in my real name - hmm im away at the moment. maybe i said MacMillan as well. Will check next week. Think thats the right date - if so yes im still wanting to go and wld love not to be billy no mates xxxx

Jenny. I also want to do something with Dignity dying. My brain isnt ready or im so busy i cant yet x

Hello Elenium. its a rollercoaster of emotions, from manic to just plain miserable. Sorry yr sister is suffering so much too. I would have been worse without this forum, perhaps she doesnt have an outlet? My sister is cold and uncommunicative, not a new thing. Very matter of fact. Mums house sale fell through, last minute. In my mad moments i think i will buy her house and live there so i can feel close to her. I dont like the house, the location nor one neighbour.. Ho hum daft thoughts. Have you started new job? lots of live x